My "Payat" Days

As reading @mommykim 's article yesterday entitled "never gonna go back to that shape" I was excited to share also how thin I was back then when I was still unmarried, that body shape of mine  that I don't know how to accomplished again since I became a mother, I don't mind about the shape of my body, as long as I am happy about it and the people around me accepts me.

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Since I gain so much weight because of stress eating, no matter what I do to maintain my body shape, I cannot control it because of depression. 

This picture was taken in 2015 during our P.E culmination, I was performing ballroom Dancing Back then. I did a lot of diet because of that Culmination because it was my first time wearing a sexy costume so I did a lot of work outs and hard work. 

I was hesitant to wear that kind of clothes because as you all know my confidence is not with me all the time, but they were praising me because of how fit I was, I was confident to give my all when I was back then because of that praise. 

Since then, I was always conscious of my body. I was  always on a  diet, I only ate 1 meal a day.I know it was not good but atleast I had to maintain my assets. I always weighed 35 back then.

Because of that shape of mine I gained a lot of self confidence since I didn't have it back then because of my skin color. I am still hoping to be back in that shape but in a good way, like eating healthy meals three times a day plus a proper diet and exercise. 

I really envied people who maintain their physical appearance after giving birth, I really wanted to do it but I love to eat food now haha, so goodbye diet nalang talaga. 

I have been having a lot of troubles when it comes to wearing jeans since I gained a lot of weight but I still love my body now. What is more important is that people accept me for who I am.  Sometimes anyone notices that I gained a lot of weight since they used to see me as a fit one, but I always said to them that it is my gain after a lot of hard work. 

When I was in 4th year college. I was experiencing Postpartum Depression. So after gaining weight after giving birth, I went back to my old body shape, but what's worse was I really look like a matured one even if I was just 25 back then, plus I had a lot of gray hair in my forehead which was the center of me being called "Lola" (grandma).

Now I realized that it's better for me to gain a little weight than to be "Payat" like this, because I can see the difference, I am not looked like a matured one one that I gained weight.

What I learned form this past experiences is Just be Yourself, it does not matter what others might say as long as we are happy.

Good morning read.cash fam, I really miss being with you all, but I have to balance my time because I am now studying. I don't want my family to be dissapointed soon, so I wanted to pass the exam on September.

This is me @Dawn_Dii , God bless us all and have a good day ahead.

Date Published : June 21, 2022