Sometimes it feels like society wants you to be happy and that showing your vulnerable state is a sign of weakness.
Things seems chaotic right now, you think you don't belong in a group, your anxiety is acting crazy.
It's okay to say that you're not okay. Your feelings and emotions are valid.
Don't hold in all your sadness and anger because it might explode. Expressing your emotions is never a bad thing. If you are not okay, say it.
Try to accept that part of yourself because whether you like it or not it's still there. For those who are struggling with their emotions and pressured to always show that they're happy even though they're not, we all have our limits and sometimes those emotions push us over the edge of those limits. We all know life isn't all rainbows and butterflies or any cute animals.
I'm not a professional but these steps might help you when you feel trapped.
Socialize — I know this is hard especially if you don't want to know other people what you are going through right now but it can lessen the weight. You can start it like small conversation with your family, friends, even strangers or anyone else.
Coping Skills — This could be some healthy strategies like sports, writing, arts, yoga or deep breathing. As long as it feels you better it can help.
Let it feel — When this dark days hit again that doesn't mean that you have to be unproductive or to shut down. While you feel it, this may sound uncomfortable but acknowledge your feelings, it will help you to move one through them.
If you're loving your life right now, that's great but if you're not, I want you to know that that's okay too. Like what I said earlier, you're emotions are valid no matter what they are. You are not a burden and remember that people do care about what you feel.
Take time to rest and to breathe. Take care of yourself precious human. You know yourself better than anyone.
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