Things I hate about Myself

Did you hate yourself sometimes? The feeling that you won't engage on that act again but still your mind and body moves on their own and repeat the same mistakes? Did you promise to yourself that you'll change but a week after your still doing that thing? You know what I really hate having this traits, sometimes I repeat the same mistakes even though I experienced to feel it in the past. There's always a part of me to change and make that failure as a stepping stone to maturity but ended up doing it again. I know lots of us have their flaws, we are not perfect and we tend to do mistakes, some are learned but some are not. I belong to those people who doesn't learn the lesson, there are things that I really hate about myself and I will share it one by one.

Spending too much Money

I really hate this kind of mine, everytime I have money I can't stop myself from spending specially if I'm with my friends. However if I'm alone it's okay to me to have a water but if I'm with my friends I can't resist to treat them cause I feel like they are so hungry after the game. I feel conscience if I won't treat them. I am planning to save but I keep spending that ends up moving the plans if I save enough money. Sometimes I already planned to save but there are emergency cases which I need to pull out the money. I already told to myself many times that I need to save for my future. I know that there's no assurance that I can get a job after college but still I can't control myself from spending money.

In addition, the shopee really convincing me to buy at their monthly sales cause the items are so cheap. I know that all I bought are for myself but still I spend money that tends to save for my goals. Now, I've decided I need to stop spending and stop releasing huge amount of money to treat them. Maybe in other time we play, I'm gonna treat them with water only. I already pushed my goal yesterday and now I'm determined to accomplish them no matter what happen. It's an assurance and when I tend to break that goal again then it's time to punish myself.

Being a Simp

Do you know whats the meaning of being simp right? It's a popular word used when a man was get attracted to ladies if they made cute actions or guys are interacting with ladies they saw. I'm like that before even now. Everytime I see ladies then I can't stop myself from looking it, sometimes I'm gonna approach them and asked their names. I really forgot how to become a man of culture. I need to strengthen myself and practice being a man of culture by neglecting all those incoming attractive scenery around me. I need to avoid being simp and getting attracted to those ladies. I know I've shared it here before and lots of comments told me that I'm a pedo but I'm not. I'm just attracted to those younger than me. I feel like they are more fun to love.

I'm not that guy who attracted to the same age or older than me, I don't know why maybe because I just want to have someone to call as baby cause I think the same age or older than me are not that fun to love cause there will be full of fights. Okay let's to back to our topic. Like what I've said, I need to avoid being a Simp since it ruins the image of mine as a man of culture. I really hope that I can address this.

Engage without reading or proper knowledge

I can relate this to what happened to me before, I've engaged on NFT game Dragonary and I joined due to its hype and also convinced by the group members. I found the game so interactive and it was created by the influenced of dragon city. It's a game in which you will gain 3 free designs at the start then if you want to breed more tokens then you need to buy CLY tokens in Binance. I've got excited to breed my new dragons and i invested more than 5000 thousand just to own 8 dragons with uncommon rarity. The system updated and announce that those having rarity of rare to legend will only continue the game and we common and uncommon left behind. Lots of us got disappointed since we also invested on the game but we are not counted.

I didn't bother to rant more and just abandoned the game, it's one of the traits that I need to address, I've been dealing in SmartBCH right now and I know that I didn't need to study much about it since I read lots of articles regarding how it works. I've joined in Joystick.club powered by SmartBCH and I also learned it by just reading articles. I've also explored Opensea.io and I learn that you can create and mint your tokens there. I know that smartBCH is safe and it's the most interesting project I know. Another thing is I found a new game which is Metacock NFT and I joined their NFT giveaways and manage to win, I didn't read the white paper yet but I'll read it on my extra time.

I have lots of things I hate about myself that I want to change. I think I'm still noob in this world that doesn't learn anything. I tend to make mistakes and failed, I have the opportunity to learn from it but I'll repeat it again. I need to change for myself, I need to change for my future. I'm glad that there are people around me who advise me always, I have friends who told me save money, we even set a goal to save for future outing of us, we planned to gather in the future in a place which we hold our cards having savings.