Hey, y'all it's been a long time that I didn't publish an article but im still roaming around on this platform you know sometimes im having a bad day that I don't know why im feeling that way that feeling of emptiness, sadness but I know it is just normal for me especially that im alone all the time no family near with me so I need to get over it I have a dream that needs to fulfill not for myself, but to my love one's yeah, im doing these so that I can give them the better future.

When im become a mother it all started that I need to focus on my goal, that I have the responsibility a big responsibility to ensure the future of my children.

I have to admit that im, not a good daughter to my parents, why am I telling this? It's because I get pregnant at a young age and because of my parent's expectations for us siblings that before we enter into marriage life we must first repay the hard work that they have given to us when we are toddlers they not telling in front of us but as we know action speaks louder than words.

Yes, my parents have thought like that, but I can't blame them tho since the way of living before was like that they think that if they have more kids and after the right age to have a job then their life would change.

I remember before with my grandmother since I was with my grandparents when I was in elementary days that time I have 2 uncles who supported us their job was a factory worker in the city and my grandmother knows the date of my uncle's salary so we hurriedly going in the city. If not go they do not give my grandmother money because they have vices that they spend their salary so before the exact date of the salary we already there.

However, things would not always like that since they have also their own life I can say that my 2uncles at that time if they can see us coming they know already that we need money and that they are happy but at the same time as if they have a big obligation to be shouldered on.

So by the time that they want to have their own family, my grandparents left behind all their children to build their own family, and yes they help but not every time only when they have extra money so what happened with my grandparents since all their children having a family? They started to grind so that they can survive daily and the worst thing is they become old so the ending is it's too late to save money, for they are already old.

And that practices come as traditional and pass in the generation and that my parents have that kind of attitude too they think that having more children change their way of living but the question is how they change? when you can't even send them to school because of lack of money and even you don't have time for your children it's because you too busy finding food that enough for 1 day eating.

I do love my parents there is no doubt about how I treasure my parents they are part of the hard work I can't imagine my life without them I only show how different our situation is then and now.

In the 80s and 90s generation, I can say that we learn things especially when it comes to family planning it's nice to have many children but we must also consider things around us if we can handle to have a big family then go for it.

my situation as a Mother im doing my best so that they have a good life and im not expecting in return that they must give me money by the time that they have their income that's the reason why im grinding now so that by the time I can't work anymore at least I try my very best that I would not regret in the end.

I'm thankful because God gave me the courage to make things happen that I think I can't.

Closing words

All the above mentioned was my views and opinions that we do not make our kids as an investment because it is our rule to give them the proper care so that they have a good life in the future.

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Date published:December 11, 2021

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