It's Hard to Decide: Two Options

February 09, 2022

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For today's write-up that im going to share it is still something personal experience but I want it to write just to lessen the burden that I have right now it still depends on my decision but yeah why not I wrote of what is on my mind? To those who are willing to give me some sort of advice, I will be acknowledged it just let me know in the comments section below.

Last December, was the time that the sister of my madam stayed here for almost a month because she newly gave birth I feel so tired at that time and since my contract was already 1year extended so I have the guts to tell my lady boss that I wanted to go home by march but what I tell at that time was not my plan it's because, to be honest, I still don't have savings as all my salary was spending in my house and even still not finish I come up with that decision, due to the pressure of my work.

Last night madam and I in the sala were just having chitchat since we're the same age that's why we have the same vibes then im not expecting she asked me about what I told last December that by March I want to go to the Philippines.

Madam: what's your decision now? Is it ok I booked a ticket for April? For your vacation or what?

Me:( smile) not now madam I don't have money at this time.

Madam: ah okay I thought you want to go because I want to know your decision if you're coming back as I don't want to get another one it's okay for me if you go like 2 months and then when you come back you can go vacation every year. (This is exactly what my madam told me last night)

Me: (speechless for a while) then I answer it's okay madam this coming June I come back again after 1 month.

Madam: okay just remind me again 2 months before you go so we can book a ticket early.

Me: okay madam

But while I was inside my room so many thoughts were in my mind and the worst thing is my heart contradicted what was in my mind.

My heart wishes to go home and be with my family spend time, go to the beach forget all your worries anyway you deserve it.

My mind has another statement" you can't go this coming June as still, you have credit in the Philippines that you need to pay and how do you go when you don't have money in your wallet?

That's how hard to decide right? Especially when our hearts and mind opposed each other.

And maybe my mind wins and my heart sacrificed and that maybe I would go by the end of this year.

I hope that next time I decide my heart and mind will cooperate now I still have time to think until April if I want to go this coming June.

That's all for today just want to thank you all for giving time to read my writing, May God bless us all.

Thank you for reading

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