December 30, 2021

Tomorrow evening stands the most awaited night as all of us wanted to witness the upcoming new year when the time 10 minutes before midnight our hearts beat fast while we do a countdown the 10minutes left before we bid goodbye to the year 2021.

However, I am now only remembering all those moments that im celebrate together with my family 5 years ago.

How happy those times when we're together we bid goodbye for the last year and witnesses for the upcoming year as we have this belief that if we're together celebrating in the new year's eve a big chance that our relationship will be strong enough and not easily be being apart.

Do I have regret the past year being not able to celebrate with my family? I think probably im not regret it because in the first place we know already what's going on when I decided to go work abroad, I even think it many times wherein I come up with the decision that takes one year before I could have done it.

Sometimes when others ask me how can I able depart my family in return for a job or others ask questions it's either a career or a family it's because for them no matter what they want to choose their family over a career in reason that our life is short and that every minute they want to spend their whole life together with their love ones. In this part, I feel pain because we all know that no one wants to be separated from our family but then I need to sacrifice everything that sometimes I forget myself and that no one knows but only me of what battle im going through.

Those years being apart from my family somehow give me the reason to be more independent than whatever trials that im encountered know that it will pass through and that better days are moving toward.

I don't want to be emotional as I've always told myself that im strong and brave enough to not be affected when all the special occasions that im alone but then furthermore im just a person with a soft heart that even how strongly I am but I can't hold back my tears when times come where all I felt the emptiness inside me.

Lucky for those who celebrate with complete family members that everyone longs for it to happen be thankful if you have a friend who's always been there for you when you needed.

But even though I feel the loneliness but I am grateful for everything for all the blessings that God has given me that I feel his presence and not leaving me amid the storm passing through.

To my sponsors thank you much!

Closing words

Every one of us has a different path to overcome and when we have families who are our inspiration everything is doing well may we have different ways as of this moment but God's purpose and will there is nothing impossible all is possible just trust everything to our Almighty God.

Happy New Year read.cash family!

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