The feeling of nothing and empty pocket & wallet

Hello read cashiers !!!

Good everyone ,how are you doing guys?Hope you are all doing great and fine despite of the crisis we are facing right now.

Have you been in that situation were your pocket ,wallet is empty?

Well ,its not new for me since I grew up without a lot of money.We are living a simple life where we are happy if we can ate three meals a day with a healthy and complete family.

But it changed when I already an adult ,money for me is the most essential needs which we can use this for buying whatever we needs and wants.Thats why I work hard so that I can give my family's needs and a little of their wants.

Empty wallet days!

After giving birth of my first son ,I and my husband are both jobless ,so I decided not to submit my resignation letter to the office of the department store where I working.I need to work for my baby's needs ,I was talked my husband about it and at first he did'nt agreed on me coz its his responsibility to feed us but we don't have choice ,he was unlucky to find a job that time.

We tried to practise our baby to latch from a feeding bottle but he does'nt like it ,he keeps vomitting everytime he latch a formula milk and its the reason why I submit my resignation letter and decided to resigned from my job.My baby needs me .My husband promised me that he will not stop looking for a job bit he was too unlucky that he did'nt find.

My baby needs diapers ,vitamins and clothing but I did'nt problem his clothing since he had a couzin and his the one who wear those clothes that are'nt fit to his couzin.I felt pity looking at my son with that situation we had ,if only I had a job I can give all his needs.

We got to the point that I recycled the disposable diapers ,yes you read it right ,I recycled it and removed whats inside the diapers and washed it .When it already dried ,I place a small piece of cloth and inside the diaper.I was doing that coz we don't have money for it.

We are staying at my husband parent and we lean them our daily food ,I cam say that naging palamunin kami ,I don't know if that a exact word for us,wala kaming ma e share na pera para sa pagkain.

I even can't buy lotion anymore that time and honestly ,many times I cried especially when I look at my son.Grabe yung hirap na dinaanan namin ,so I askedy husband na uuwi ako sa magulang ko with my son , I did'nt tell him that I was suffering a stomach pain ,coz there are times na hindi kami makakain sa tamang oras.My sister in law will sent money every end of the month at madali lang ding maubos kasi marami kami sa bahay.

Alam mo yung feeling na super guilty ka kapag oras ng kainan pero wala pang pagkain,kung may trabaho at pera lang sana kami hindi kami makaranas ng ganun.

It was almost 4 months that we had an empty wallet until my brother in-law got home from hongkong ,pagdating niya he gave a 1000peso bill to my husband and told him na ibigay sa akin para sa pangangailan ng anak namin.It was the time that I able to hold that amount..He felt mad but at the same time he felt pity looking us,he felt mad for my husband who is his brother coz he was thinking that my husband was like did'nt find ways to sustain our needs.

Everytime my brother in-law got home from the town ,he will handed me a pack of diaper and cerelac ,a food for our baby.Everytime he sees my husband he got mad ,coz it his resposibilty to give our needs but he does'nt have job.I know it hurt for the part of my husband ,I know that he find ways and never stop looking a job but he was unlucky.

My brother in-law always there for our baby's need thats why now that he is the jobless ,I and my husband was here for him.

Back to our story ,after 6 months of living together with my jobless partner ,finally he able to find a job but he only had a 2-4days of work every week ,he is is just a reliever only but still we are happy for it coz we can buy our needs especially for our son.His boss before offered him a partime job and my hisband grab that opportunity.

And there I started gaining weight haha ,we can ate good meals ,unlike before and our wallet never empty again,though there were times that we are running out of budget but it did'nt reached to the point that we don't have something in ou pocket ,there still some cents of it.

After a months of having a part time job ,my husband finally found a stable one til now .We are so happy and blessed that we never experienced again what life we had.But there are also sometimes that we felt hard interms of money but its a different situation before.And thats the reason that me and my husband easily felt pity for someone who asking to borrow a money from us coz we know what and how does it feel to have an empty wallet.

I know God is testing our faith to him ,and I must say to everyone that don't loss hope ,trust God always.His plan is better than ours.