Nanay, I am sorry.

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Hello everyone! I apologize for my inactivity yesterday night. I set an alarm at 10 o'clock time but ended up waking up at 8 this morning. I must be so tired yesterday and my body gave up and rested so well.

As soon as I got up from bed, I drank a bottle of water because my throat was dry and I don't know why. Maybe I had a marathon in my dream.

So to make up for the time I missed, I opened my account and tap the blinking red bell and cleared the unread articles, and responded to comments on my previously published article. I am glad that I am seeing Rusty's name in my notification and other awesome writers' upvotes to my post too.

Also, I would like to welcome this great author here on my block. @Talecharm, thank you for your generosity. I am honored to be sponsored by you. Thank you for the unexpected blessing. You rock!

I am supposed to tell you another story today but my heart is pushing something. Do you have this feeling too? Like your supposed to do this and ended up doing that? Anyway, this idea came up during my bath earlier. This is about how hard-headed I was before as a daughter.

As we all know, most of our parents especially our mother dears are so strict. They're strict not because they don't love us but because they wanted us to be safe all time to the point that they became overprotective.

Here are the few scenarios that I could recall so far which I could say that I was a headache to my mother. I was so stubborn. Every time she says "Don't go, I go".

Don't go.

"Don't go out, it's dark already". This was when I asked my mother if I can go because I want to hang out with my friends in Tabogon Port (Pantalan sa Tabogon). This place is just so relaxing for me. Every time I have problems at home or school, it's the only place that calms me.

Going back, I only asked my mother once and she said " No!" without hesitation. I never asked for the second time and exit the house. Yes, that was rude. I know that she will be mad at me. I just don't care. She yelled at me while I was walking away from our doorstep. I never looked back and just walked straight to get the motorcycle and woosh I drove and go!

I got home past midnight. Knocked on the door. Knocked again. Knocked again and called my mother to open it. She said wait and opened the door for me. I hear no bad words from her. Not even one. (Sayang! I prepared myself pa naman, lol.) So, I get inside and went straight to my room. And she goes back to sleep. Morning came and I never heard her nagging. I don't know if she forgot or was just tired of repeating her curses at me.

"Don't go, you will just end up getting nothing". It was the year 2018 after our recognition ceremony in the third year, I asked permission from her if I can go to the city with my besties to look for a job. That was the time when our classes will resume after 4 months and I don't want to stay at home doing nothing.

She doesn't trust me. She doesn't want me to go after asking her thrice. She was furious. She was so sure that I will not get a job because I am not competent.

The same thing, I never listened. Monday came, I packed my things and go with my friends. I have no money to use so I borrowed from my Auntie, her older sister. Thank God she lends me PHP 500. I then bid goodbye to them and followed what my heart wanted.

I don't know how my mother reacted the moment I leave the house. She was silent. Maybe she did not notice me leaving. Maybe she thinks I listened. But no, I am so stubborn.

We arrived in the city. We're all excited and nervous. We swore to each other that if one of us will be hired and the other two did not, we will not continue and instead find another job to apply for. Also, we promise not to call our parents not unless we are hired.

We had a lot of printed resumes with us. So if in case we have to jump from one company to another, we have extra. We're all prepared. Chars!

The time has come. I was interviewed first. It went smoothly and so I told them about the questions asked and then they went inside. Evaluation and interview were done. We waited outside for the result, praying and hoping that we all passed.

After five minutes, a pretty short lady in a suit came out the door and said...

Congratulations, all of you are hired!

We all jumped and screamed with so much happiness. " We did it!", we whispered while looking at each other's eyes. We called our parents right away about it and then I forgot that I have no minutes to ring my mother. My phone says...

"Sorry, you don't have enough load left in your account. Please reload immediately."

So I borrowed my friend's phone and called her. It takes forever before she picked up the phone. We talked. She's not mad. All she said was "Oh, that's good. Anyway, have you eaten? You call me if you need money for your allowance, okay? Take care."

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My mother is a tiger. She will eat you alive with her words. But at that moment, she was very calm and kind to me. She sounded so worried. My conscience was eating me. The call ended and I cried. I whispered "Nanay, I am so sorry" in the air, wishing that my mother could hear.

Closing thoughts:

All mothers know what is the best. Mothers are the nicest. I have so many regrets in life. Part of that was my attitude towards my mother. I even cursed her sometimes when I don't feel like she has been a good mother to me. Not knowing that she's acting that way because she loves me. That she cares for me. A lot. So for those who have strict parents like me, please know that they're just protecting you. They don't want you to be in danger. Everything they do is all for you. So please do the same. Protect them at all costs.

That's all for today my dear friends. Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate it so much! I hope you're all having a great day today. God bless you and the people around you.

I'll be back!

Saranghae! 💗