My Heart Palpitates!!!

I woke up this morning and checked my phone to be sure of the date. Wow!! It's July 2, 2022. Tims is running faster than I thought. That's amazing!!!

I wrote an article about my birth month yesterday. It's my birth month and my birthdate is July 16. My mind becomes heavy as the day approaches. This has always happened to me right from small.

Though I am very happy to clock a new age but scared of what will become of me in my new age. Then my heart began to palpitate.

What exactly is expected from me in this new age? Career development? Marriage? Kids? Or what exactly?

And I know there are birthdate vows. A vow that everyone makes on their birthdate. Things that you've promised yourself to stop doing, things that you want to start doing, people you want to stop moving with... We all do that right?

I know... I can't change in a night. It's not possible. I can't stop talking to those sets of people immediately after I make the vow. I should work towards it before the birthdate.

Then, I spoke with my heart. My heart feels like home and I know it's home. My heart feels like someone I used to know. How do I do this a few days before my birthdate? How do I change some of my wrongdoings before the date?

Hello heart? How do I learn to live alone? Success doesn't need a crowd. You hardly see a successful person with too many people with him. Dear heart, teach me😪. My heart is heavy. Teach me and let it be like a movie to me.

Hello heart? How do I act according to a new age? Oh yeah, it's not too necessary to act like a mature person but you know my attitude towards myself and other people matters. Teach me. I'm watching you.

Hello heart? Is it possible to stop procrastinating before the date? Talk to me!!! When I think about a lot of things, I'd tell myself that I'm supposed to be in a better position but due to procrastination, I'm still shaking and baking in a position. Dear heart, teach me!!!

I guess you see the reason my heart palpitates. I'm sure you've had that feeling in one way or the other.

At times, I feel like I'm scared of getting old. I'm gonna face my fears💯.

This got me playing a very interesting song by Adele. The title is "When we were young". And it eased my mind. The heavy mind that makes you think you're having an asthma attack. The heart palpitation can never be compared to the pounding of a yam. The pounding comes melancholic.

Or should I just continue to be a kid?

Should I pray to be young again?

I don't want my heart to be heavy anymore.

I don't want my heart to palpitate anymore.

Dear heart, teach me🙏.