I should have understood better...

When people don't have any curiosity about themselves, that is always a bad sign.

Irvin D. Yalom

The signs came in like flashes of dim light so I never questioned it.

The talks went around but I never asked why too.

The love of keeping to myself blinded me.

I could see but could not truly see what was truly happening.

When the talks became consistent and louder this time, I decided to take a look.

Then I realized, I should have understood better.

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Life is a rollercoaster,the ride is always wild and bumpy. Sometimes the bravest soul never make it and it'll make us question,can we?

Yes we can with great determination,but it isn't assured for we might fall with no hope to rise again.

They are certain things beyond us that we can never understand even when we study hard at it.

Life is a mystery and full of secrets of the unknown.

The journey of life brings us to the story of the young lad who believed otherwise.

He saw life has a mere thing which can be lived with no stress.

His view on life's perfection was cut short when his mother became very ill.

Oh dearest mother of this poor boy, he didn't know what to do as such had never happened before.

The lovely,carefree life he had seems to be a distant dream of no ounce of reality when his hero(dad) was taken away by death so soon.

He could have sworn his father was the bravest soul of all.

The boy's world seems to crash down completely when his Ma who seems to be getting better kicked the strange bucket.

He never understood why and didn't bother to ask,he was shaken to even utter a word.

He didn't know what to say or do,he heard the voices of his parents family he never knew existed,he heard their words but didn't listen well to grasp the meaning to it.

He locked himself up in a cruel manner never to see the light.

The presence of darkness fit his weary soul.

He was lost,he saw the flashes of properties being taken but he never questioned any.

He heard the murmurs but he closed himself away from it and stood alone.

He held onto his past like the air he breathes,not letting go.

He could see the people taking it all away but he couldn't see what they were taking.

The echo's of their talks one day woke him up and then he heard clearly what he couldn't and knew what their saying meant.

Then he realized he should have understood their plans from the onset.

Right there he understood life but it was too late for his doom descended on him.

Conclusion.

The story above is not just about the boy alone but the life we all live.

Most times God sends us signal toward some things but we never seem to understand not question it.

When life throws it jabs at us,some act like the young lad, keeping to themselves and blocking out the reality of life.

We forget we need to learn from the scar and make a beautiful story out of it. We let our past sink it teeth into our very soul,capturing us in a tight grasp with no will to fight.

Things are happening all over the world and we shouldn't ignore those signs sent to us,we shouldn't turn deaf ear to those murmur.

A woman, a lady and a guy died yesterday while crossing the road, it happened that I crossed the road not up to a minute,I was still walking to get home when I heard gbam!!!

A car collided with her and the two others and they just fell.

I turned round and couldn't believe my eyes.... I mean I just crossed the road,the road...

I'll tell you what, when I wanted to cross the road, my mind told me to look left and right before crossing and I almost question it,I mean it just a one way but I have learnt to always listen,then the lady beside me was telling her kid the same thing I thought on, wait let's look well before we cross and we did.

I just stood there for a second, trying to process why there was pool of blood where I just crossed, I blink rapidly and stopped,I saw people rushing toward the scene and I just stood there...

I saw someone stopping a car to take them to the hospital and I just turned around and walked home. I knew the woman that died, she sells at the bus stop.

When I got home,I just sat down and thought on what happened,I prayed for their soul and I was glad I understood better.

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Writer: Balikis

Date:15 May 2022