Blog #40
October 18, 2021
Hello everyone! Happy Monday!
Yesterday, the whole day we don't have electricity. It was restored at around 7 pm and because of having no lights I missed a lot here. There are still unreplied comments that I haven't checked yet and some articles that I haven't visited too. I will continue scrolling my notifications today.
Today is my 1 month and a half stay here in read.cash and I also publish 40 articles including this one. Good job self, we made it this far. At first, I thought I won't be able to publish many articles because I am not a gifted one with brilliant ideas on my mind but thanks God for showering me with some ideas every day. My works may not be that creative and interesting but at least I tried exploring this new field and trying to let go of what's on my mind and heart.
Me and My Old Self
I was like a crying baby
I easily get emotional. It seems like my tears are too shallow that it easily rolls down whenever I felt hurt, sad and angry. I don't know why but I can't control my tears to flow suddenly.
I don't care if people saw me in that state. I don't care if they saw the weak side of me, what I care about at that time was my emotions. I just wanted to let go of it. I wanted to express my feelings through crying.
But today, I learned to control my emotions. Even if I am hurt for what others did and say and for the tough situation I faced, I didn't show it to everyone. I only cry my heart out when no one sees me. I cried in the night that only pillows and my bed witnessed it.
I easily got discouraged
When things doesn't go as I have planned, I felt discouraged.
When people didn't appreciate what I did to them, I felt discouraged.
I easily get discouraged over some petty things. When people criticize me and the things I did, I felt it.
As soon as I reached this age of mine today, I learned to disregard the opinion of others towards me. Those criticisms I received, I make as my inspiration to strive more in life.
My mind was full of negativities
I am too afraid to explore new things because I am afraid of failure. I am afraid that I can't make things possible. As I have said in my other articles that I wasn't fully confident with myself, for who I am, and what I can do.
My mind today gets matured. I didn't make things affect me easily. I always told myself to look at the positive side of things, not the negative effects that they caused in my life.
I base that old self when I aged 20-25 years old. Now at the age of 27, I can say that many changes happened to me. My perspective about life changes and my mind gets matured as days pass by.
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Happy Monday!
God bless and keep safe everyone!
Most of the time, failure is my greatest fear.