I'm Keeping Myself Busy Lately
Blog #400
Life is tough with me right now. I never thought that I will be in this situation again wherein I'm trying to overcome this battle that I have deep within myself. I tried examining myself as when did this thing started and I remember that it was last September when classes of the kids had started. I think some notice my inactiveness last September. By that time I only publish more than 25 articles and by October I only published 21 or 22 articles. And this month it's getting lesser because I was not in the mood to do my side hustles.
I started feeling this when I was left alone in the house. Total silence is what accompanied me when kids are at school. It makes me bored and felt alone and sometimes some negatives thoughts would suddenly popped up on my mind. I thought it will only last for days or weeks because I was thinking that maybe myself would be getting used to this set up but I was wrong especially this month when the class is already 5 days in a week.
There were times that I just cried suddenly without knowing what's the reason behind it. (Sorry for sharing something like this today. Let me just express this.) But I'm trying to fight this feeling. It's hard but I know I can make it. This unwanted feeling really hit me hard lately.
They say keeping ourselves busy to forget about it is one of the best thing to do so that's what I did. Somehow, it made me forget about it. Three consecutive mornings, I was in school because of the meeting that I had to attend. Knowing that I am in one place with my children, it made me happy and calm. Maybe, this feeling suddenly occured because I was used to have my children with me at home since in the previous years they only had modules so 24/7 we are together.
Then in the afternoon, I also keep myself busy with house chores like washing dishes, cleaning and doing the laundry. Since I can't do it in the morning because of the meeting so I handwash the clothes during afternoon. When I finished washing, it's time for me to have my rest time and then waiting for my little ones to come home.
With my absence in my side hustles, I miss a lot of things especially reading other works here but I will try my best to read some articles when I am in the mood to do so just like this time. I'll make this opportunity to be productive since myself feels a little better today.
Closing Thoughts:
To others who are fighting silent battles as of the moment, know that you are not alone in that battle. Let's try to fight and overcome this.
Always do remember: It's okay to feel tired, it's okay to rest. Let us never let this unwanted feeling win over us.
Hello to all! Happy Tuesday!
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It's funny I have been in a slump as well. I had to say bye to many articles by clicking the button "mark as read" It was hard to do but I couldn't keep up.
It's ok mommie, maybe this time of inactivity is a way of God is telling we need to take care of other things. I'm sure he will bless you soon to get back to yourself to grinding again :)