"Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace."

— Dalai Lama

As much I wanted to stay calm but there is really that one person in our life who will do everything to destroy the inner peace that we are trying so hard to protect or maintain. I'm trying the best that I can to prolong my patience but this housemate that I have here is also trying hard to shorten it until it's gone. I'm not sure if he is lacking in attention or just too bored at home. He is always testing my patience.

Honestly, I am a moody person. My mood swings are crazy and that's why I'm trying my best to control myself. I'm trying to keep my composure throughout the day, so I couldn't pour out my annoyance to innocent people. I tend to get irritated easily if I got disturbed during my time alone or have been distracted by them for just useless things. And I admit, I'm spitting out cursed words not intentionally sometimes if I got annoyed. Well, sorry about that. I'm not perfect and I'm not a saint.

The man that I'm talking about is a cousin of Madam's husband. He got stranded here when lockdowns are first implemented and he still can't go home right now because he is afraid of Covid-19. He decided to let the situation calm down first before traveling. Maybe, he got too bored here because he likes to hang out oftentimes when there wasn't a pandemic yet.

I'm a quiet person here. Everyone knows that I'm writing here as my side hustle, so when they saw me being silent or sitting with a phone in my hand, they wouldn't bother me. Well, except for him. He knows perfectly that I'm thinking about what to write when I'm silent but he still always annoys me. Like it's f****ng irritating.

He will call my name every time that he sees me. Then when I ask him if he needs something, he'll just smile like he just wanted to call me for nothing. Sometimes, he would ask me some obvious questions with obvious answers. When he passed by me, he will poke me in the back and ask me always if I have eaten though he saw me that I have eaten already a while ago. Every day has been like this. I have been telling him not to disrupt me when I'm sitting silently alone. That's the thing I hate the most, being distracted from my Me-time.

I don't want to shout at an old man. I want to respect him as one of my elders as possible, so I used some methods to ignore him. I put on my earphones most of the time even though I'm not listening to music. I just want to show him that my ears are stuffed and I can't hear him. This works for quite some time but I really don't get this old man. He will always find some ways to annoy me.

Like, is my angry face does look amusing to him or he just wants to entertain himself by irritating me?

I sometimes discuss that with our other housemates. We all often have one resolved about him. It is, maybe, an Age Regression. He is slowly reverting into the state of mind of an annoying child. You know, kids tend to annoy adults when they wanted to get their attention, right? I just thought that, maybe, it is, the case and I hope not.

So yeah, today he was like that to me again. He can't bother the other youngsters here because they are working outside and I'm only the one who is often inside the house. Every time we meet, he will call me with no other intention, just wanted to call me. There's a time that he will take a peek at my phone behind my back and comment loudly on everything I do on my phone then laugh when I glare at him.

On his last attempt at calling me repeatedly without any other intention, I got fed up. I haven't controlled myself and I have shouted him this, "WHAT THE HELL? CAN YOU STOP?!" Then, I ignore him, turn my back, and climb upstairs to the second floor where no one is there, then calm myself down. After an hour or so, I went downstairs and I have meet him again. He just keeps silent when I stare at him and continues to ignore me until this night. Oh, he is sulking. I felt glad instead of feeling bad about it. I'm not even feeling guilty about what I acted at all.

Can he blame me?

I tried my best to tolerate him and he knows that. It's a great feeling that no one is bothering me now. I am so much relieved. I think 25% of my stress had gone away. I'm really hoping that he will continue to ignore me, so I can enjoy my peace a little longer. Well, call me a girl with attitude, moody, or a girl with bad temperant. I'm just wishing to enjoy my time alone. It's always written all over my face, so kindly read the atmosphere. I even told him that straightforwardly but he didn't listen. So, my bad if I shout at him. Sorry, but not sorry, though.

Hello, Guys!!!

Sorry for all the rants up there. I just can't help myself to write all my frustrations. I'm thinking of other topics to write about earlier but I got distracted by him and my irritation is all over my head. I have to let it out, so my finger just freely wrote all of this. Do you guys have a person like this in your life? If there is, then don't hesitate to teach them lessons that can hurt their feelings. Just kidding. Don't be like me because I'm crazy as hell.

Thanks for reading this!