Tired, weak and shaky

I had been trying to write articles but I felt like they are not good for all of you to read. I was trying to write my feelings but something was off.

I should have been working my *ss to earn money but here I am being very lazy. I cannot say that I had writer's block, I know there is so much to write.

But I feel so tired and my hands shaky, I'm not that old to feel this way but I did; for Pete's sake im just 28 years old but I had teh symptoms of 60 years old.

Yesterday, I was not even able to write an article, and not even commented on five articles here in read.cash; oh, I had so much need yet I am lagging. Earlier today I had a headache. My arms are sore, no not sore but "hawuy", I'm sorry I did;t get the exact English term of that word on the web.

My fingers are shaky, I cannot even point at something without noticing my hand being very shaky. It's weak and I cannot even make a good fist.

In fact, I wanted to sleep this off but making money is my priority these days. Skipping a day at work has a huge effect on my pay so I had to go to work even if I feel this way. I tried to make as much sleep at night but I always feel more tired than I had been before sleeping.

I am not just physically tired but emotionally tired also

From what happened to my mother's eyeglasses last Saturday, the stress had been lurking in my heart until now. That sadness that I had not been able to give her what she need has not subsided yet. My nephew who said he would bring my mother to an ophthalmologist yesterday had only a little payment received from his work online and was not able to take her to the City yesterday.

I know how hard it is for her to move around without eyeglasses but I cannot do anything because I don't have much money. I had been working very hard since I got a job yet I cannot see visible traces of improvements. Sometimes I ask my slef, why do people buy their wants often? How do people have money in their wallets always?

I know I did some investing but there was no income yet.

Our income is just the same but everything that we spend on increases. I have been telling my husband to make tipid on teh electricity and help me with the chores at home but he is busy with all other things to listen to me.

Haays, Im feeling so tired physically and emotionally. I hope thsi will come to pass soon so that I'll be back to my old cheerful self again. Times like this will definitely come to life, I've been this way before, and I'm dragging myself back to where the sun shines

oh, hello dear friends, Im happy to see you here. I hope you are all happy in your life

keep safe!

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