I'm feeling better. I vented out and had massage

My husband is full of surprises

I am pleased to tell you all that I am feeling better today. Last night, I asked my husband to massage me from head to toe, now don't get your mind dirty, I badly needed that massage because I was losing strength already. I had lots of panuhot (lamig sa katwan)and that was making me feel bad.

My husband is very good at massage I asked him where he learned to massage and told me that when we were still in high school, he went to a vocational school to learn massage therapy. So I asked him who had he massaged before me, and he said it was only his mother and our godmother from our wedding.

He was very sweaty last night, he had a hard time on massage because I had lot of fats already.

Venting out is good

When we went to bed, I vented out all muy hinanakit to him.

He realized he was wrong. He was too complacent(kampante) with me and used some words that do not suit... no, and do not give me comfort.

I always worry about our financial needs and last day before we parted (I was going to work and he to his mother's house) he told me

basin mag basketball mi karon, or mag practice ug boxing .. kung laayun ko mamasahero.( maybe I'm going to play basketball or do boxing training today, if I get bored, I will be doing habalhabal(offer peopel ride in motorcycle but with payment)

He realized that what he said he was telling it as though he had no family and no responsibilities at all.

He feels very carefree whilst I was worried every single day and even doing side hustle in my workplace and even getting less sleep. When he is at home, he watched videos and play games; I even asked him nicely to post regularly at noise since he only needs to post short captions. Then he lets my cousin borrow his phone and the load which I worked hard for(form noise) other people will empty. I even refrained him from letting other people borrow his phone since those people have their own phones too.

I got tired. I know this tiredness will not be easy to get rid of but I'll cope with this one of these days.

See you all in the comments section.

I had little sleep last night but I guess venting out had relieved me from tiredness.