Opening Thoughts

I never really wanted or ever dream to become a full time mom in the future. I was always dreaming on becoming a working mom to my kids someday. Right after I had graduated from college and got my first job I already set my goals that if ever I got a family of my own, I will continue working. This was originally my plan but little did I know things will change according to God’s plan.

Becoming a mother

I got pregnant with my first child while I was working in one of the leading malls in the country as a customer service representative. I was already a regular employee that time. I took my maternity leave a week before my due date. During that time maternity leave for normal deliveries took 60 days. I gave birth to my first child via normal delivery that was why I took care of first born during his first two months. Together with my mother who went to Manila from the province to accompany me. My husband wasn’t with me that time, because he was out of the country for work.

I was with my child during his first two months, and it was one of the happiest time of my life. I did enjoy being a mother to my newborn child, from changing the diapers, all those sleepless nights, and preparing milk for him. It was all new for me. Though I wanted to breastfeed him, unfortunately my body didn’t produce enough milk for my little one. It was a little disappointing but learned to let it go afterwards. I went back to work right after my maternity leave ended. I never wanted to go back because I am going to miss my little one, but of course it can’t be or else I would be fired from my job.

Working Mom

For a new mom like me, returning to work after giving birth is the hardest. While at work, you suddenly missed your bonding moments with your baby. There were times I wished I could sped up the time so that I could finished my duty and went home right away. A few days after I returned from work my husband returned home from work overseas. When my mother who was taking care of my little one went back to the province, my husband took in charge in taking care of our son. We weren’t married that time yet by the way so we were living separately. After my mother went back to the province, Anthony(my husband) and I decided to live together with his family. He stayed for two months vacation and then went back to work overseas. We hired a nanny back then so that someone could take care of our son while both of us were working. It didn’t last tho, we both decided that I should quit from my work. I rendered my resignation to my supervisor and after a while it was approved.

Full time mother

After resigning from my work, I was very busy taking care of my then 5 month old son. It was fulfilling because I was able to witness every milestone he reached every month. It was all fun actually, but also very tiring. I was enjoying every minute of it to be exact. But of course, when there were happy moments, there were also not so happy ones. Whenever my child wasn’t feeling well it made me weak too. Most specially those times when he can’t speak yet and all he does was crying. But as days goes by, I’ve learned many things with regards in handling babies in these situations with the help from the people around me. Time passed by quickly, and my first born celebrated his first birthday.

A month after my first born turns one, I got pregnant with my second child. I became worried at first since I still have a child who needs a lot of attention but an incoming baby was still a blessing. After many months I gave birth to my second child. It was the hardest because I now have two babies that needs to be taken care of. Then I was fully breastfeeding my second child, made it more a lot harder. Eventually I learned to embrace everything, from that moment on, no matter how hard it gets, I just keep on enjoying it. I had always this one motto in life, that no matter how difficult life is, I know it will still worth it in the end.

Closing Thoughts

Though I never wanted to be a full time mother before as what I have stated earlier I would say that there wasn’t any regrets and I didn’t feel bad about leaving my job for my kids. For the past decade of becoming a full time mother, I’ve encountered a lot of hardships but eventually overcome it. For me to enjoy what you were doing and being contented with what you have will make your life happier. To be able to witness your child’s improvement and growing up like you wanted them to be, will be an achievement for me in the future.

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