You have that too you feel like crying whole day? It's just the day the nights are fine. Fine most of the times if my mother doesn't wake me up in a bad mood, hits me and make me work. It makes her angry if I do not smile but it makes her angry too if I do not cry, cry and beg if she hits me. Why should I beg? She hits me anyway. That is why we have dog leashes.
I am not in the mood to do anything. I don't feel happy. Perhaps people like me never feel happy? I see other people laugh, make jokes and some speak while others laugh out loud. I do not understand the funny things they talk about. I do not think it's funny. Perhaps they laugh because there is nothing to worry about? Except for the girl with the harness everyone is different. They are happy or look happy, they shout and run and chase each other. It is not what I like to do. My feet always hurt plus I do not like it if people touch me. The teacher at gymnastics does on Thursdays. She says she catches you if you fall. If you fall your body sounds like a bag of potatoes. If you heard the sound once you will never forget it.
Potatoes. My grandfather tried to carry my grandmother upstairs. He could not and dropped her. He said she is heavier than a bag of potatoes.
I think he is still in hospital. No one talks about him. Perhaps he is or he is back home? I can not ask anyone because I am not allowed to make a phone call. The housekeeper never talks to me either. If I cry she walks out if me. At least she is not searching for me. After I hid my diary I will lay down here for a while. I hope my parents will be gone for a long time and not ask for me. I feel too tired.
Friday
September 11, 2020
A kid's diary
This is an ugly truth around the world. All we can do is pray for those children who have irresponsible parents. 🙏❤