It's Wednesday and we only have school in the morning. I seldom play with other children. I visited Francoise a few times and she visited me once or twice.
It'no fun staying at our house. I think children only agree because they like to see how we live not because they like me. No one has a housekeeper only we have and we even have two extra cleaning ladies on Fridays. The cleaning ladies never stay long. They have their own tasks but they can not stand my mother. She scolds at them too. They should wash her mouth with soap but no one ever does. Only mine knows what soap tastes like.
I can not tell anyone how my mother really is. No one will believe me. I think adults are too stupid to see what is going on or they do not care. That's it. They do not care. They only care about themselves and fear what happens to them if they say something about it. Adults have a lot of fear, I can smell it and the dogs smell it too. That is why dogs behave differently if you are afraid of them. I am not afraid of dogs. They do not fear me and I do not fear them.
People make me feel miserable and nervous. There are too many people and I wonder why. No one cares. My mother doesn't care, my dad does not, neither do my grandparents or granny or aunt or the neighbors.
My mother says I have a crinkle and make up things. I see the fear in people's eyes if she talks to them. They fear her not me but I can not help them. They are adults and should fight her. I am just a little child. A child nobody wants, no one likes, without friends and a granddad in hospital.
Wednesday
September 9, 2020
A kid's diary
Do not touch
Anne F.
The dog leash
This situation is like the adults were afraid of getting between relationship or matters that concern other people. Not because they fear the consequences, but maybe because part of them understands what is happening and just respecting the other party.