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Have you come to the point of your life that you felt useless and unworthy? To the point that even you have tried your best but still not good enough. To the point that even you tried to keep going but you felt there is something that keeps pulling you backwards. You know what, this kind of feelings gives me the kind of thinking about just to quit on life. And this situations that I am currently into, I really don't know how long can I hold myself from not doing something stup*d.
As I lay down in bed, I just can't stop myself from thinking a lot of things, more on about how I can live life comfortably. Later years, after I graduated college and being just a house girl gives me a lot of pressure about how should I go on and live my life. When I see my classmates and someone I knew back then, enjoying their lives, with their family, with friends, with their jobs, achieving their dreams, I can't help myself but to feel envious about it.
What is wrong with me?
Why I can't be like them?
Should I still wait?
How long should I wait for my turn?
I have some of their good points too, but why I can't avoid the feeling of envy and the feeling that I am not belong in their class or in their group.
If you're going to ask, "how's my life now?" I would honestly say that I am not satisfied with what's going on in it. Though I am surrounded with loving and caring people, but still the feeling of contentment and satisfaction is not there. Ridiculously, I came to a realization that there were lots of things I have regretted for the past years of my life, including those time that I am still studying in college. One of those things was the thought of being too complacent for being an only child and merely relying on my parents. "I spoiled myself!" Knowing that they will give everything they can without realizing that it will not be like that for the rest of my life. (Deep Sighing)
Aigoo! I just fooled myself. The feeling of ignorance really hits me to the bone. But despite the fact that I am not in their level right at this moment, I am very much happy seeing them reaching their dreams and becoming successful in their lives or careers. And even though I am in state of life that I am battling depression, pressures, doubts, disappointments, envy, and dissatisfaction, I still have a lot of things to be thanked for. One of these things called, "Life."
That would be all for this blog fellas. Thank you for spending your time. Take good care of yourselves, especially your heart!❣️
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!😇
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