Positive Jealousy

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Maybe some people will say that jealous people are a negative attitude in themselves but actually not all jealousy is a negative thing. I say this because I have experienced it not just to seek sensation in all friends but the fact of life that has led me to the conclusion that when someone is jealous, many changes will occur in his life. Jealousy is a common thing for some people because every human being has a feeling and a heart that will accept all the events of life normally.

This was when a few months ago I received a heartbreaking incident when I had to leave the badminton arena because I was not included in the selection team for a tournament in my area. I felt paralyzed when the announcement of the participant's name on my roster did not enter the team. I became frustrated because my dream to compete in the tournament could not be realized and my hopes had disappeared since this announcement was made. I regret what happened to me, indeed I am aware that my abilities are still lacking compared to my friends, but because my expectations are so high that inner problems befall my life.

Many of my friends said that I wasn't fit to take part in the competition because my skills were still like a baby. These words made my heart heat up like an electric shock that would scorch my clothes. I became very jealous of them because their skills were above mine because of this incident I chose to leave the team. My decision did not scare them because for them I did not have an important influence on the team because I was powerless to lift my performance on the green carpet.

Since then I was determined that I could be like them because my actual abilities are still stored and can't be released so that this determination made me practice diligently and never get tired. My training ground is far away from my area and I do this when my free time and office hours don't bother me.

A few months later my abilities grew and grew and I realized that it was time for me to show my teeth to those who had kicked me out. My friends thought I had retired from badminton since that incident and they didn't know that I was practicing secretly. Finally the time came when they saw me carrying a racket to a building where a badminton game is located in my area. With a calm attitude I entered the court and invited them to play.

There were so many spectators in the room but I took it as a matter of course because I'm used to it from my training ground being full of spectators. They shouted at me with the sentence that early retirement was postponed, this did not provoke me because mentally I had also learned from my training ground so that when the exhibition match started I had shown top class skills like world players and they did not believe in my performance and I won the match.

It was quiet on the pitch when I won the game and their eyes were wide in disbelief what was happening. My jealousy has changed something in me that probably wouldn't have happened if things had just gone well.

A person's hope may be destroyed, but there is still a feeling of wanting to rise out of a fall that will lift one's identity by seeing the success of others.

Jealousy is Positive