I am so proud of myself, looking at how far I've been right now. Remembering those gloomy days made me teared up. Nobody knew how I struggled to get up in the morning. I literally forced myself to do even the most minor things at home or at work. I isolated my whole existence from others because talking and interacting with them drains me. I shut down my entire system and let those negative emotions drown me. I am confused and lost once again. But then, just like I always do, I trusted myself to save me. I trusted myself to lift me again —because no one would do it except me, right? And finally, here I am, smiling like I used to. Functioning again. —cheers to those battles you've won, that no one knew about.