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maybe I was loving for LOVE, in the WRONG person
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@phoenixASHES in September 2021
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Never discredit your gut instinct. You are not paranoid. Your body can pick up on bad vibrations. If something deep inside of you said something is not right about a person or situation, TRUST IT.
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I automatically go silent when I hear something that hurt my feelings.
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Don't trust too much. Don't love too much. Don't hope too much; because that "too much" can hurt you so much.
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good day mga ka-noise... life's been hard nowadays... let us keep looking forward... have a great day ahead 😊
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evening is approaching.... still feeling empty 😞
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Am I really selfish if I prioritize my son first? Masama ba na hilingin ko na ikaw naman mag provide samin na mag-ina mo? Unfair na ba ako nun? Unfair ba na masaktan ako dahil sa mga sinabi kaya mahirap sakin ang kausapin ka ngayon, lalo na at malayo? Mas pinili mo ang umalis at maiwan kami, sabi mo mag work ka para maka ipon pero after a month nag resign ka. Sabi mo di kaya ng katawan mo bigat ng work, so panu kami? Panu kami aasa sayo kung napkadali yata sayo ang ang…
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Maghahamon ka ng hiwalayan at kukunin mo ang bata eh sarili mo nga di mo maalagaan? di ka nga makatagal sa trabaho, dahilan mo mahirap at nagkakasakit ka, so sa paanong paraan mo bubuhayin ang bata?
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sana all may asawang pupuriin ka, hindi yung ang tingin sayo, WALANG KWENTA
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panu ba masasabi pag unfair ka na? panu ba masasabi kung selfish ka na? panu ba masasabi na demanding ka na?
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ang seperation hindi pinag de-desisyon-an sa chat, pinag uusapan at pinag iisip yan ng mabuti, ano ka, teenager, nakikipag break thru chat
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ano ba dapat gawin? it seems that gusto mo na lang na sumagot ako ng "oo, tapusin na natin to", tapos ang lalabas na masama sa bandang huli is AKO
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scenario: -kasalukuyang LDR ang mag asawa, si baby nasa poder ni misis, si mister umuwi ng probinsya -minsan pinuna ni misin na baka panay inom ni mister kaya palagi masama pakiramdam, nagalit si mister, hinuhusgahan daw sya ni misis, wala naman daw sya pruweba, kaya mag send si misis ng isang screenshot kung saan makikita si mister na nakaupo sa harap ng isang inuman session, ang paliwanag nga, isang red horse lang naman daw ang ininom nya dun at di sya panay panay nag…
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pati survey na sinasagutan ko alam ang sitwasyon ko...
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todays gloomy weather represent mine....
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you are really F*****G unbelivable!!! nung nakaraan lang hinahamon mo ako ng hiwalayan, minamadali mo pa ako na sagutin ka, then suddenly you're being f*****g nice, I actually have a hunch why, at di nga ako nagkamali... it is what really it is.... my gosh... ano ba tingin mo sakin? you really making me feel worthless
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I WORTH A LOT.... HINDI LANG AKO TAO NA BASTA MO NA LANG ITATAPON AT TA-TRATUHING BASURA KUNG WALA KA NANG MAPAPALA. AAMUHIN KUNG MAAALALA DAHIL MAY KELANGAN KA...
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6 years... 6 long years simula ng mawala ka at magtungo sa kung saan wala nang sakit at tanging kapayaaan. Gabayan mo kami palagi, alam ko na binabantayan mo kami at pinapanatiling ligtas. Miss na miss ka na naman, pasensya ka na kung di ka naman madalaw dahil sa sitwasyon ngayon pero lagi mong tatandaan, na kahit san kami magpunta, nasa puso't isip ka namin. We love you so much, Papa, we miss you. Until then 😘😘😘
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another day, another emptiness, another day to fight my thoughts, another day to fix my myself, Im in constant battle with my self, I wonder, when will I be OK
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ahhhhh...so what it is now....im the one to blame, ikaw lang may sacrifices, ikaw lang nakakaintindi, do you dare to ask me though, tinanong mo lang ba ako sa kung ano gusto ko ng hindi mo minamasama? tinanong mo man lang ba ako sa kung abo magpapasaya sakin? hindi diba, sabi mo nga ikaw na lang lagi mag dedesisyon, so pati yun kasalanan ko na din ba?
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you tend to do things on your on pero pag nagkaron ng mali ipapasa at isisisi mo sa iba, when will you own up your own mistake and accept na fact that you did wrong. tao ka, di ka perpekto
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another day of emptiness again, wonder when will i feel complete again
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panu ba ang tamang way ng pagsuyo? yung pagtanong ng kumain ka na ba? ano ginagawa mo? sapat na ba yun?
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What is a NARCISIST? Based on my own thought, NARCISIST is a persons who love themselves more than anyone/anything. Then, it came across tiktok about NARCISISTIC PARTNERS and how would you know if your having a NARCISISTIC RELATIONSHIP. They say; -NARCISIST has there own way to make you feel at fault -NARCISIST can turn the table by them being victim -NARCISIST hordes person to make them feel the superiority and -NARCISIST will never say " I LOVE YOU"
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morning mga ka-noise another day, another battle to win please guide me Lord to make decision that I wont regret after, I know what you want is what's best of me.
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This NARCISSIST thing is getting into my nerves. Am I really in a narcissist relationship ship? Do I spent more than a decade of my life being manipulated? I do not see my self being control to what others want to, but it makes me realize things, that maybe I really am wrapped unto his fingers to do his bidding. That when I tried to moved on before and he shows him self in front of me, I just accepted him without having a word of what just happened. Like I'm glad that he's…
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sa bawat pagbuhos ng ulan, may bahagharing susunod, sa bawat sakit at pagluha, may pag-asa at sayang makakamtan, pagsubok sa buhay, di natatapos bagkos magpapatibay sa pagkataong pilit na ibinabagsak
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Lubos po akong nagpapasalamat Panginoon sa panibagong taon na ipinagkaluob nyo sakin. Sa pagbibigay ng isa pang pagkakataon na makasama ko ang mga mahal ko sa buhay. I know for my 32 years of living madami akong nagawa that makes you disappointed. I sincerely apologies for all tje sins that I have done, but even though I am a sinner You still guide to the right path, You still make me feel Your love for me. Continue blessing me and my family, guide me, help me make the right…
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it should be my happy day, but I feel so incomplete I feel empty, may kulang, may sakit na di ko alam kung kelan mapupunan, but I know that I can get through this, kaya ko to, in Gods guidance, my family and my son's suppport, kaya ko, kakayanin ko, I AM STRONGER THAN WHAT I THINK OF
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One statement lead to other blaming, I just pointed out my responsibility to our son and now I'm the one to blame. It is your decision to leave, you said your too stress to stay so I agree because I don't want you to suffer, because I understand what you're going through, and we agreed that will follow after this whole pandemic come through. But what is it that you want, after knowing that a job offer for me there? You what me to work for us, alone, because you easily got…
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I'm so tired. Tired of being neglected, tired of being unheard off, tired of explaining my side, tired of being accepted
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Good morning mga kaingay!!! Panibagong umaga, panibagong pag asa. Simula na ng pagtanggap sa mga bagay na dapag ng matupad. Time to heal, time to accept. Alam kong mahirap yung daan, pero kakayanin. For myself, for my son. I ask you Lord to guide me, to continue give me wisdom. To protect me. I know planning something big because I deserve it. You open my eyes for me to see clear. In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
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A new realization. JEALOUSY. You wanted me to go back to my former work despite of the stress and anxiousness that I've been through. You want me to go back there because we're all woman there. Tsk...
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good morning mga kaingay 😊😊😊 tinanghali ng gising dahil sa dami ng isipin 😅😅😅 kain tayo gatas na may champorado 😋😋😋 unli gatas para sa champorado 😁😁😁 have a great day ahead mga ka-ingay!!!
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currently watching "gifted" starring fafa Chris Evans. why so wafu.
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sino po pwede mag guide, need to download app po ba?
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makulimlim na umaga mga NOISEfam!!! pandesal, itlog at cornbeef for breakfast and COFFEE pampagising sa natutulog pang diwa. Let's start the day right, smile, see whats life has to offer SIEZE THE MOMENT
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still wondering why but still waiting, hoping for an explanation and extra effort. still hurting but will continue to live.
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Where did you came from??? didn't remember me bumping into something???
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trying my LUCK on BIDA THE FIRST, ISANG TAWAG KA LANG... sana palarin...
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ito po ba yung bagong wallet na kelangan? still wala pa value ang aking puso, still thinking kung ano nagawa kung mali at panu makakabalik
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I am so happy na mukhang ok na ulit ang noise.cash, sana tuloy tuloy na. Goodnight mga kaingay
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Maulang morning mga ka-ingay. Coffee at sopas sa malamig na umaga. It's sunday at since it's Alert Level 4, 10% lang ng capasity ng simbahan ang ma-a-accomodate, dapat fully vaccinated na din. May mga online masses din naman kung hindi makakapunta sa church. Let's make our home, our own version of The Lords House.
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ako muna tutuka sa kusina for lunch, see you in a bit noisefam
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movie mga ka-ingay... KNOWING starring Nicholas Cage
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good evening mga ka-ingay... nag dinner na ba or tulad namin na nag hahanda pa lang ng iluluto...
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ohhh gosh....i can't believe you... i just can't....the disrespect that you letting me feel...I worth more than that...I WORTH MORE
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I won't let you dragged me down again, I won't let you make me feel that small again. I am starting to appreciate my self more that anybody else. I won't let you bring me back to that place again. Never.
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In the past few days, I realize, to be able to love someone, you have to LOVE YOURSELF FIRST. Dahil kung hindi, maabuso ka, you will be abuse in any form and it is scary. Nakakatakot na habang binubuhos mo lahat ng pagmamahal na meron ka para sa taong yun, unti-onti ka na din palang nauubos, hanggang sa wala ng matira, kahit para sa sarili mo. Kaya habang may panahon pa, save yourself. Save yourself from the pain.
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I've stood down many times, because I thought thats the right thing to do. To make you see me, to make you appreciate me, but I was so wrong. Now I suffer the consequences of my actions. But its never to late. I still can lift my self up and find my SELF WORTH again. With the right people around me. With God who will strengthen me. I can do it, sure it will be hard, but I know to my self that I CAN RISE AGAIN.
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It is past lunch time, walang gana kumain, but need to feed my self. Push lang self, kaya mo yan.
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salamat shopee, may new toy ang baby ko, baby ko, sayo na lang ibuhos ni mommy love nya nu
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Magandang umaga Noisefam, new day, new start, NEW BEGINNING. Simulan natin ang umaga ng may pagmamahal at pagpapahalaga sa sarili. Its not wrong to be selfish once in a while, lalo na kung binigay mo na lahat at ubos ka na. Ikaw naman muna. Palitan mo muna motto mo ng; ME, MYSELF and I.
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Ang bigat sa pakiramdam nung nag bigay ka opinyon mo pero nabalewala pero pag ibang tao nagsabi, mabilis pa sa alas kwarto kung i-consider nya. Mali ko din siguro dahil hinayaan ko sya, pero iba na ngayon. I am knowing my value now. I worth a lot more than that.
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I'm so lost...what to do, what to do? Don't know what is happening, whay will happen? If I'm doing the right thing or what. Is this what they call the TRAUMA BOND? Gulong gulo na si Me
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Paano ba ang tamang paraan ng pagpapakumbaba? Dapat ba may sumbat? Na ikaw na nga itong nagpapakumbaba. Ni hindi mo marespeto yung sakit na dinulot mo sa mga sinabi mo. Tapos parang ikaw pa din ang galit. Sa lahat yata ng nagpapakumbaba ikaw ang galit at panay ang panunumbat.
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PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY and MENTALLY drain...PEACE come my way please...kahit sandali lang
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Black coffee at pandesal sa umaga. Black coffee, tapangan natin, para may lakas sa pagharap sa bagong pagsubok ng buhay.
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the long wait is over....eto na sya....the much awaited story of Inang Cece....Inang salamat po....You made my day happy...
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May naligaw na butterfly dito sa loob ng bahay. Kanina pa yan, paikot-ikot lang dito.
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Gabi na naman pala mga ka-noise-fam. Pag gantong gabi dumadating yung napakaraming isipin eh. Hindi na kasi busy sa iba't-ibang gawain. Hoping this night won't be like any other night that has past. Sana kahit ngayon gabi, maipahinga ko muna yung mga isipin ko.
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My first step of moving in is to LET GO. I let go of the person who cause me so much pain. I will let go of the pain in my chest. I will let go of the things and thoughts that broke me to pieces. I know it will be hard, but I need to stand my ground. I need to fight and be strong enough. I know I can make, coz I will make it happen. I'll move on, not soon, but it will happen.
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It's evening...the time for us to rest. Tonight i'll try harder to have a good sleep. I'll try my best to clear my mind and surrender everything to God. I know You have better plans for me. Help me have more faith in You. To have more trust in You. I know You have something big for me.
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Are you planning on going up BCH... Go higher....
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Kay gandang umaga NoiseFAM!!! Another day, another battle. Let's face it with new strength and courage. Put that lovely smile in your face. Its a new morning, a new start. Bagong pag-asa, bagong pagkakataon para maipadama natin ang ating pagmamahal. Again, good morning NoiseFAM!!!
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Super black coffee in the morning. Pampagising...wag lang sana ako nerbyosin sa maghapon 😅
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Maagang movie marathon... A korean movie titled "Inseperable Bro"
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A super sunny afternoon NoiseFam. Napakainit ng panahon, napakataas ng sikat ng araw. Samantalahin na at tayo ay maglaba...hehehe
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Ang sakit na yung hinihintay kong accountability mo sa mga sinabi mo ngayon mo lang sinabi, kung kelan napagod na ako, kung kelan ubos na ko at wala na ko kayang ibigay pa. Baka kung noong nagtitiis pa ko at nasabi mo yan at tinanggap, baka di natin kelangan humantong sa ganito.
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Time check: 10:35 Late morning post NoiseFam...how's everybody... My battle still continue...I believe I am winning. I need to win, not just for my my self, but for my son as well. My journey for finding MYSELF WORTH is in PROGRESS... I'm so proud of myself, I know I still have a VERY LONG WAY to go, but I'll keep going. I'll continue until I achieved what I deserve. Keep pushing everyone, keep going.
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Now watching: Pacific Rim: Uprising An American Sci-fi movie. A story how Ranger Pentecost and Cadet Amara fight the Kaiju.
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Pork nilaga for dinner NoiseFam. Mainit man ang panahon, wala pa din tatalo sa mainit na sabaw. Panigurado tagaktak na naman pawis namin after dinner dahil sa sabaw.
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Good morning NoiseFam. Another set of black coffee and gatas na may champorado. Lagi na lang champorado almusal ko 😅. Nagtitinda kasi kami almusal, bili na 😁 Have a great day ahead mga ka-ingay.
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Happy 100 subs....maraming maraming salamat po 😊
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Christmas is in the air.... Naka-Christmas theme na dito sa bahay. Sa kabila ng hirap ng buhay sa gitna ng pandemya, wag nating kalimutan ang totoong kahulugan ng pasko, at iyon ay ang pagmamahalan at pagbibigay.
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Napakainit na ranghali mga ka-NoiseFam. Nakakain na ba ang lahat. Keep hydrated everyone, sa init ng panahon ngayon need natin ng madaming tubig sa katawan. Happy afternoon everyone.
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It's not even a week ago. You just keep on disappointing me. You are just proving me that I did the right thing. And because of that I shouldn't be disappointed. I just can't help it. But anyway, thank you for proving that I did the right thing and that I am going on the right path. Thank you.
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The pain that you put me through cant be banished by a simple sorry. So dont ask forgiveness, wala ka ngang ginagawa para mawala yung sakit na dinulot mo then you have the decency to say such word.