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Back at noise again....how's everyone
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Im back mga ka-ingay!!!! Matagal nawala, nag-muni-muni, nag-isip-isip...
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I received a text message from him. The message says that he'd noticed me unfriending him on Facebook. That he'll keep on holding on even though it hurts him so much. Then I realized, during our relationship he keeps on insisting that we broke up in every problem that we encounterd. And now, that were already broke up, he will hold on??? Isnt that insane??? Now that there will be no assurance that I will accept him again he's holding on??? Its just so unbelivalble that up…
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Trauma bond- describe as the addicting feeling of love and hate, like and dislike, appreciationn and invalidation between the abusive and the abusee. It is when the abusee crave to have the affection the abusive can give after making them feel the devaluation.
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Bati na sila ni big dinosaur...tinatakbuhan mo pa yan kahapon eh... thank you tito and tita for the dinosaur kahit di nya bday at wala christmas
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Yesterday has been so tough, ive been so down, i felt so heavy. I feel a liitle bit lighter when the afernoon came. Special thanks to my handsome baby, you made mommy felt fine yesterday.
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I feel so down now. I feel so heavy. My chest ache, my eyes are trying to drop a tear. But I need to be strong. It is part of the process. I need to accept tge pain for me to keep moving forward. It'll all pass in the right time.
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I am dealing with the pain that you've cost me all by myself and it's even more painful because you're not helping at all. You've cost me too much pain and yet you want me stuck in you and block my way. But I believe, there are more ways than one, if you block one of them, I can find another way for me to keep moving. I won't allow you to stop me.
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Its kinda unfair that you have that what you call "peace of mind" while you wont allow me to have mind. Im doing everything I can to move forward, but every step I make you are there to block my way. Then you have the audicy to say you have that "peace of mind". Ill have my one of this days too, maybe not sooner, but ill be there, in my own kind of PEACE and when that time comes, no matter what you do to block me, ill surpass you, with my head held high, proud and happy.
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Since walang pang AXIE INFINITY at wala mahanap na manager, ito muna, KARA STAR, same concept as axie infinity. Kasalukuyan pa syang free hanggang Nov. 18 kaya lulubusin ko na, meron syang free 3 pets na magagamit mo para makapag laro. Pero usap usapan na after Nov. 18 mawawala na yung free pets pero naka ipon ka na UMY token to buy pets. Yub sabi nila. Anyways, there is nothing wrong in trying. https://share.karastar.com/share.html?su=AZVL
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Ang hirap kalaban ng EMOTIONAL THINKING. Ang hirap din maging OVERTHINKER. Ang hirap na lalong paniwalaan ang mga SALITA, lalo na kung ang mga salita walang kaakibat na GAWA. Nandoon pa din yung DISAPPOINTMENT. Mas higit yung PAIN. PANGHIHINAYANG sa tagal ng PANAHON na naubos at nasayang sa isang taong KAILANGAN ka lang pala dahil may naibibigay ka. Sobrang sakit na habang naghihintay sya na balikan mo sya their are random individual na kakausapin nya to keep him company.…
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Not productive this last few weeks. I want to be productive again.
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Hi NoiseFam!!!!! Natalo na naman ako ng emotion at curiosity ko... Pero hanggang dun na lang yun... Im ok with the peace I am having now, yes, there's still a time na nalulungkot at nanghihinayang ako, but it is His will. Di naman na to bago sakin, this happeed many times already, so lets break the cycle. My new motto: KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!
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It's Halloween season, uso takutan, uso usapan tungkol sa mga hindi maipaliwanag na bagay. Until I come across a 2019 Filipino movie "Clarita". Si Clarita ay anak ng isang ispiritista. Nakulong sya dahil sa pagiging prosti to survive. While in prison, she was possess by spirit/entity. Upon exorsism, she named 7 entities. The entities who ruled the 7 deadly sins. While watching that specific scene, a thought came into my mind. That the presence of this entities were just…
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Being alone for weeks makes me realized a lot of things. Things that I haven't saw before. Things that I knew were fine but isn't. Noon pa pala napakarami nang RED FLAGS, but I'm too blind to saw it all. But its never to late. It's never to late for myself to heal.
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It's been a month, no regrets at all. I have no regret that I choose myself for myself (what???? Does that makes sense???). I'll get through this and make progress. Kaya ko to, kayang kaya ko to.
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Maulang Sunday morning NoiseFam!!! May bagyo ba? Hindi na kasi ako nakakanood ng balita 😅 Anyways, have a great day ahead sa inyong lahat. Stay safe and God bless...
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Its been so long since I last visited you. I miss your presence. I hope your with me now that Im going through all of this. I know youll be hurt as well but youll understand and youll support me. Youll stat with me, coz thats how much you love me.
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Good late morning NoiseFam!!! Been awhile since I last posted an update... Everythings been a rollercoaster ride for me this past few days. From feeling alright, then depresses, then ok again. Theirs also this weird thing thats happening to me. I shiver everytime, like literally my whole body shakes, later on I found out that it can be a form of trauma. My mind sends my body a signal that I maybe stressing out too much. I didnt even realized that Ive been in too much to have…
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Another day...another journey... Panibagong araw para harapin ang hinaharap. Panibagong simula para sa bagong buhay. Panibagong pag asa sa mga umaasam. May hirap mang madadanas. Ginhawa at kapayaan naman ay nag aabang. Sakripisyo ay magbubunga ng kasayahan. Good morning sa lahat.
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Happy Monday morning NoiseFam... Medyo glummy weather dito sa amin today. Still waking ul in the morning feeling empty. But its a process. I'll continue having faith on the process. I know it'll lead me to be a better me. I know I can and I know I will.
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Im back NoiseFam!!! Been gone for quite some time... Needed time to compose my self again... Masyadong painful yung nangyari nung mga nakaraan.... But Im back, hopefully, happy thoughts naman ma share ko this time at hindi puro ka-emo-han. Have a great day ahead...
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It still ache, it still ache a lot. It ache to know that we can never be the same again. It ache that it is all just a memory.
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Gloomy morning NoiseFam!!! Another day, another battle, another chance to prove myself what I deserve. Its difficult to have a debate yourself everyday but I believe that I am winning. And I will continue to win. Just wait and see. I will win this battle and I will stand tall and proud.
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Keep safe everyone, malakas ang hangin na dala ni bagyong Maring, may dala din syang pag ulan. May our Almighty God keep us safe from any harm. Prepare necessary like easy to cook food and clean water. Evacuate when its needed. Everyones safety is a must. Wag na matitigas ang ulo. Your life is more important than anything.
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There are times that it seems everything is fine, that we'll handling it just fine. But there is this something, or somebody who'll triggered it all back. The person, the memories, the pain. All of it. But its just how it goes, its the process that we all have to went through. Eventually, its all going ti be fine, for good. Maybe not now, now sooner but it will happen
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It's a sunny Sunday morning NoiseFam. May Our Almighty God blesses us todat with abundancy and good health. Stay safe and well NoiseFam.
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Sa pagdaan ng mga araw, lalo kong nararamdam na tama ang desisyong ginawa ko, that I decided to end a relationship that brought me much pain than happiness. As days pass, I'm seeing how selfish you really are. That up until now, may reasons and feelings has been invalidated. Na walang halaga sayo kung ano man nararamdaman ko, kung ano man rason ko, basta ma-serve ko ang purpose mo at ang gusto mo. I keep avoiding that RED FLAGS before, fooling myself that it is not it, now I…
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As days pass by, that we're on our different ways, a huge realization dawn unto me. The pain that you cause me run to deep, and I know that it'll take time for me to heal. I know it'll be very hard but i need to try my hardest, I need to do my best. I need to move forward. It's for my self. I've been neglecting my self for years. Its time for my self to have my whole time and energy. All my efforts. My self deserve it all. Panahon na para sarili ko naman ang unahin ko.…