Things I Do During My Hard Time.

We all go through tough times. Different kinds of trials will come along to test how strong we are. In these trials we will see how resilient we are in facing the storms that comes our way. It may be difficult at first, but sometimes we don't realize that little by little we are able to cope and get through it. As they say, the Lord will not give us a trial that we cannot bear. And it's up to us how we handle it.

I went through a very hard time last Month. As all you know I lost my Mom who was so very important to me. I can say that this was one of the toughest trials I have ever gone through. It was too hard for me, and very painful to imagine that I aready lost her but I still have to accept it, because we all know that nothing lasts forever. Even our lives have a limit. Because the Lord has just lent it to us, and the day will come when he will take it back from us.

In the first days since my Mom passed away, it was very difficult for me to think clearly. I only felt pain at those times. I did nothing but to cry. Honestly until now, especially when the night comes, I remember and missed her even more. But then, I can't stay like this forever. I had to build myself up again despite the pain I was feeling. So I decided to do the things I used to do before. I need to make myself busy. I need to entertain myself so I can avoid thinking too much. I have to do something to lessen the burden I feel inside.

The Things I do during my Hard Time

• Playing BCH.games

• Playing Colorgame Land

• Watching Movies and Korean Dramas

• Be Active in noise.cash again

• Trading in Stormgain

• I Started Writing an Article again

Playing BCH.games

I can say that playing in BCH.games was been a big help for me to forget the sadness and pain that I feel for awhile. This became my hobby, as I mourned the loss of my Mom. Because I really couldn't think properly at that time. So I just chose to play games. BCH.games has 5 kinds of games, but I got addicted to playing Target, lols. I can't stop playing especially when I'm winning. I know it's still gambling but I know my limitations though. I only bet 500sats in my games. I usually spent $0.50 Capital everytime I play. I'm happy when I got lucky, but sometimes I also lose more than $0.50 when misfortune befalls me. So far my biggest win here was $10 with a capital of $0.50 with bet of 500sats and x3,649 multiplier. It was a great stress reliever for me already, winning while entertaining myself. So I really thanks @BCH.games for being my stress reliever.

Playing Colorgame Land

When I started losing in BCH.games I will start spending my time here in Colorgame Land. I used to play this already before but this past month I've been actively playing it again until I feel sleepy. As much as possible, I don’t want to free up my time until I’m not yet sleepy, because I’ll just end up thinking about my Mom’s memories. I only play colorgame and tong-its here. This is also a gambling App but what's good is you don't have to invest anything here. All you have to do is play and earn Coins, Diamonds and GoStar. You can Diamonds to but Coins to play any games and chance to earn GoStar. GoStars to redeem Gifts, either load or Gadgets/Appliances available in their Super Deals. It will take a lot of time to earn GoStars though but I just want to play it as a past time. I just got annoyed when the App requires an upgrade because when I upgraded it I lost all my GoStars which is already at 150plus GoStars. So I just stop playing lately too, lols. It tooks me a lot of time and I always stay up late just to earn for it I but ended up losing it. But well I still love the game though. I'll just take a rest from it for now.

Watching Movies and Korean Dramas

I've been actively watching Movies and Korean Dramas again just to keep myself busy from thinking too much. This is what I only do almost everyday. Once I'm tired playing I will start watching just to avoid myself from thinking. My hubby tried to keep downloading Movies on his USB just for me. He just wanted to entertain me every night co'z he knows that I will ended up crying again. In the morning I just keep watching some Funny Movies in Youtube or some Korean Dramas in Facebook. This really helps me a lot too to avoid thinking too much.

Be Active Again in noise.cash

I honestly got demotivated writing last month. Actually even before Mom passed away I was already inactive in noise.cash because Mom was always confined at the hospital and it's really hard to keep writing if you had such problem. Until she passed away last month I got more demotivated to write. My mind was so blank of topics, I can't think, I can't do what I want to do. But this August I decided to be active again. For sure Mom don't want to see me keep grieving on her. I still have to move on and do what I used to do. I have to keep moving forward and keep grinding to reach my goals. So here I am again keep noising at n0ise. My noise.cash family was been a big help for me too to keep moving forward. Especially my #Club1BCH family who's been there for me during the worst time of my life. I really need to go back to normal not just for me and my kids but also it was Mom's want for sure. I know how she wants to see me keep doing what I want and what I need to do.

Trading in Stormgain

Trading in Stormgain became one of my stress reliever lately. I Started trading continuesly just this August since I already completed my $10 free mining last month. I've even almost forgot that I still have money in Stormgain. Since I'm trying to get back to my normal life I also started again, trying my luck in field too. Ow I am happy to see that I am already gaining some profit here. So far I already earned $24 just this August. Thanks for BCH pumps, it makes me like a real trader now, lols. I only use x5 just to make sure that my lil BCH savings here will survive long, since I'm not an expert yet I am too afraid to take a risk too. For me little by little is better than to lose everything in just instant. I'm hoping to gain more profit here until I achieved the minimum withdrawal that is 0.11 BCH. It will be hard and it will take long before I can complete it but I'll do my best, and I know BCH will gonna help me do that co'z I believe we are starting to bullish again.

I Started Writing an Article Again

And lastly, just this August 15,2021 I tried to make an Article again about Mom's lost "Final Goodbye: No More Pain". An Article full of sadness and pain for me and I didn't expect that this Article will gonna be the way for me to finally be noticed by the bot. Atlast after 4 months of trying my luck since I made this second account of mine after getting spammed on my first account, he finally visited me. Indeed Patience is a Virtue like what @PVMihalache said on our TG group. 🙂 He also visited my last Article "Bullying: A Childhood Most Traumatic Experience". I'm so happy with it hoping that this is a start for me to finally reach my dream goal, to be a certified "BCH Hodler". It was my dream to be visited by the bot co'z I know that he is the only way for me to accumulate more BCH like the others. I do earning some BCH in noise.cash but we all know that it is still better when we are also earning here in read.cash, more chance for us to accumulate more BCH here. Now I have more reason and motivation to keep grinding here too. Thanks also to my Club1BCH fam for being my top inspiration to keep going here in read.cash. 🙂

Oh by the way I also did register in Fantasy Football League. I honestly didn't know what to do yet, lols. But thanks for @bmjc98 for guiding me. I made my team and also joined The League of Crypto. I don't know if I chose the right team but I'll just try it first and wait for the result. 😁

So there, that's all I do during this hard time of my life. Sometimes we really have to do something to make ourselves busy especially when we are going through something hard to carry. We need to fight the sadness, pain or burdens that we feel deep inside our hearts. Do something that will make some progress or growth to yourself, or something that makes you happy to reduce the pain you feel inside. We have to keep going no matter how hard we are going through. Not just for yourself but for the people you love who needed you the most.

Closing Thought:

There is no one who has not gone through difficult times in their life. We all have different kinds of trials that we have to go through. And it is up to us how we deal with it. But as much as we can, we should force or teach ourselves how to fight and get through it. Yes it is hard sometimes but we have to move on with life. Let's just continue to pray and leave all the pain and sorrow we feel to our Lord. As we all know everything happens for a reason. He will never ever give us something that we cannot handle. Keep fighting, keep going, continue living and everything will gonna be okay in time.