Yesterday's shame on me

May 28, 2022

I was down and out yesterday night because I was very tired from the ride back home that I was not able to publish or even interact with last night. My body felt sore that I felt like I came from a battle of swords that I can't even move a muscle or maybe because I was really just super drained yesterday. Let me just share what happened yesterday as I was not so inspired to continue the challenge or maybe I will do it later in the evening.

Yesterday morning, I was not in a good shape for I only sleep like less than two hours. There really are times that my body doesn't cooperate with me that I just want to scold it but what can I do, my body has its own mind itself that sometimes it doesn't listen to me. My hiccups are also ruining my mood as I am uncomfortable with it.

Since I had my tantrums I only had coffee like I finished three sets of it from morning up until the afternoon. I didn't even have lunch since my hiccups were severe and I was sleepy. I thought I could sleep during the break but no sleep happened as I was tasked to do something! facepalm!.

Then Lady Boss told me that she will go undertime so it was my chance to rest before going home. But no rest happened too since I was keeping updates on the decluttering of the power tools on site. I'm calling both the messenger and the architect together with the other workers since they have no load. I want to just give them a load but I don't have a balance on my e-wallet so I just go with being their bridge of communication.

At two in the afternoon after my last set of coffee, I decided to bring some of my things home. I will bring them little by little because the company might be switching to work from home scheme so I'm just bringing some of my things little by little to avoid a bigger hassle in bringing them home in bulk. Only then did I realize that I had a lot of these phone cases stored. I bought a new phone last Christmas and gave my old phone to Mum as I was upgrading my phone to a bigger capacity and useful features for work purposes.

I ordered ten sets of phone cases as I have the same phone as my older sister so we can exchange phone cases if we want. Guess I was really obsessed with these cases as they were still sealed most of them as I only used three phone cases alternately and I am using the One Piece design right now.

I departed from the office at four in the afternoon and rode a jeep going to the highway as I decided to just wait for a bus on the highway than go to the terminal. Then I passed by a ngohiong express near the highway, as I was passing by I opted to just eat first before riding a bus as I haven't had lunch.

I was shocked that their prices sored really high, the siomai was now 16php, the squid roll was 27php at three pcs and the nhohiong is already 12php but the hungry me can't complain to them.

I was watching Kuroko's basketball while eating and I was having a little good time enjoying my food for it's been a long time that I ate in ngohiong express so I was savoring the moment then I forgot that the ride back home will take longer this time because of the traffic so I finished my food, drink my water and then went out to go the highway.

I hop on the bus at five and opted to sleep while on the bus, but because I was really full so I just scrolled my phone and read a manga. Isn't Giovanni too cute when he was being scolded lol!!

After an hour of being on the road, my nausea took effect on me and I am blaming myself for eating a lot before hopping on the bus. I felt my stomach go upside down every time that bus had humps and dumps. I was calming myself and preparing some extra precautions as I'm a person who really can't stand crowded places and buses even though I'm always using them as transportation.

I'm already eating candy when the bus came to a halt and stopped as there are a lot of passengers hopping in, which caused me to become more uncomfortable each moment. Imagine being squeezed on the window side as the passengers are piling up that some of the passengers we're standing holding those poles to support them on not falling.

I can't hold it anymore and I was holding the plastic I prepared in case of emergency. Relieve and embarrassed at the same time, the middle-aged man sitting beside me just tap on my back and offer me water at me to which I declined for I also have water with me and I just nod at him as a way of thanking him for the consideration. I closed the plastic as it was a ziplock style, thinking that it was only once but it happened again. My stomach felt like it was boiling and wanted to burst out. The second time and it's on my mask, huhuhuh. Glad I brought a lot of extra masks and wet wipes that I was able to clean myself but there were some of them on my shirt that I became a mess. I wanted to cry out of embarrassment but I just hold it in and chatted with the family group chat about what happened with a crying emojis.

Papz told me that he'll bring a jacket when he'll come to pick me up, I was just looking at the open window on my side wanting to hop down but the traffic was really bad. The moment I came off the bus, Papz was already in the terminal waiting for me with a jacket in his hands. I immediately put on the jacket to cover my shirt and hugged Papz, I really wanted to cry but Papz just told me that it's normal for I am really not a person who is fond of crowded people but was forced to since I need to go home, crying will not gonna help as it will only make me lost all my energy again.

I came home and took a quick shower and lay down in bed, all the things I brought were still on the floor but I just lay down first since I was really drained. Mum then called me to have some warm soup which it works a little but I was still tired. Glad my son just followed me and stay silent. He even took a warm bath on his own before going into bed with me, he's also the one who reminded me that we need to pray first before going to sleep (napahiya pa ko sa anak ko jusme!!)

I was planning on reading even two or three articles on my phone but my body and mind screamed sleep so I just turned off my phone and sleep next to my son and drifted to dreamland.

I apologized for being in your timeline this early in the morning.

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Thank you for reading!!

@mommykim