Stubbornness made me sleep without eating.

June 25, 2022

Home finally...

My friends and family who's been my company for a long time know I hate carrying things. I don't care if it's heavy or light but I prefer it in my backpack or sling bag rather than holding it in my hands. I don't use an umbrella as I prefer using a cap or hoodie jacket, my phone is in the corner pocket of the bag I'm using. Small or big but I just don't like holding things outside or traveling.

So when Papz picked me up earlier he giggled and I got confused, but he didn't answer me not until I got home. Mum and even Granny whose in the house was shookt, lol! Like what? Then Mum saw me holding a big eco bag with my books in it. So that's it, it's me carrying something in my hand. I need to bring my books since I need to cover them with a plastic cover, aside from the Warcross doulogy that already has a plastic cover in it, so Granny can start reading them. My backpack was in my room and I am using a sling bag so I had no choice but to carry them in my hand ugh...I guess I was branded lazy carrying something since the parents and even Granny were quite amused with what they saw, lol!

I also remember one time when the fruits in the yard were harvested and my parents wants me to bring those to work so that the Bosses can taste them. And since they knew I hate it so they put it on a backpack and let me carry it. Imagine putting two Guyabanos and a kilo of guavas in a backpack. I look like a camel with a bump on the back. Lady Boss even laughs at me and ask just how lazy I am to carry things in my hand. Well, that's me actually.

Oh, and I was a little disappointed earlier and become stubborn with Mum and Papz.

I arrived at three in the afternoon so Mum advise me not to take a bath because I was out under the sun while traveling so I just need to wipe my body and then change rather than take a bath. After changing I went out of the room again and was welcomed by the beaming and loving son. We cuddled and hug, and I called Mum and invite her to eat with me and Papz, but she just told me to eat on my own as they were all done eating their lunch. It's understandable as it was really three in the afternoon already, and also Mum just finished washing the clothes and only had the time to rest after taking a bath. So I just told her to stay with me in the kitchen while eating but she refused as she was tired from washing clothes and Papz have something to tend to.

So the stubborn me "tsk" and I went to my room. I was pissed and all. I am also tired from the early work and the travel yet I didn't want to show it to them as I only can bond with them during weekends, and the only thing I want is to eat with them as I've been eating alone in the office the whole week, give me a break from eating alone.

My son went to my room and just stay there and ask me if maybe we can just take a nap together. Even though I'm hungry as I didn't eat breakfast earlier but the hard-headed me don't want to go out so I just took a nap with my son and not minding the people and even Granny outside. The tiredness got me and I knocked down the moment I lay down on our bed. I didn't even notice that Mum went to our room to put the books on the table and even turn on the electric fan.

We woke up at six and the other sister had already gone to work while my older sister already arrived and all. Granny didn't even talk to me afraid that I'm still pissed from earlier. The kids just went to me to greet me in the evening and bless me.

I went to Mum and said sorry about earlier, maybe the tiredness and the hunger got to me that I got pissed. Papz even smile and said it's fine for they understand my side. He even told me that he kept on calling my name earlier but I guess I was so damn tired that sleep overpowers me and all.

I know some of you might judge me for my behavior earlier but oh well no one can understand a person who just wants a companion when eating as I often eat alone in the office to the point that I sometimes don't take dinner just so I can't feel the loneliness and the longing of the family I eat with at home.

That would be a round-up of the happenings on my side as I am not in the mood to do the challenge again. I am really lazy these past few days that I can't even finish a book per day. Before I can read two books in one sitting if I a more focused and really into it. Guess I need to exercise concentrate again and meditate also.

Thank you for reading up here.
@mommykim