Let's take it easy

August 24, 2022

"I hate this, home chores are not for me, I'm bored, I want to work already, having zero balance is stressing me out"

Captured it earlier while carrying my niece for some shade under the sun early in the morning for some Vitamins.

I always say this mantra to my sister whenever we have a small talk after dinner. Mum didn't know that I am complaining about not having real work and just helping her with the house tasks. My sister just listens to me blabbering about the everyday tasks that I needed to do but I am not suitable for them really. I want to work where I can showcase my skills and my experience. Being stuck at home is a good thing but not working is not really my forte. Even though I have already applied for a certain job the waiting is also long and I am really itching to go back to work already.

My sister just listens to me every night and I kept on blabbering. After a minute or two she would just tell me this

Take it easy, you know when I was having my maternity leave for three whole months I felt what you really felt and it's really killing me not being able to work for such a long period of time but you know what I realized that with those months that I have no work, I get to see you nieces and having the chance to take care of them and not minding the timetable and not rushing everything because of my work is really a refreshment. Yes you have no job as of now and you're just mooching from our parents but just try to think of this as a month-long leave from work. Remember those days that you can't even sleep a wink because of too much work and the stress killing you because of overworking? Take this time to spend with your son and the family. It's not every day that you get to wake up not rushing everything and enjoy your cup of milk while looking at the sky and talking with Mum every morning. Seize the moment and just let go of those frustrations. Time will tell when will you be coming back to work full time again.

That really made me silent for a while as it didn't cross my mind that this is my chance to have more time with them.

So for now, I guess I will try not to be agitated and to finish those books that I haven't read for days already as I am busy doing house tasks.

Let me just share to you that I laugh off my frustrations because of my son.

Usually, he behaves after taking a bath but after mealtime that's another story, he really plays and moved all around and I kept on telling him to stay still but to no avail he just can't be in one place. At first look, he was playing balls with his cousins, and then a minute or two he's already riding his bike, and then another glance and he's poking Mum's cheeks just to piss her off. Mum always scolds him and I don't interfere with that. Afternoon naps are a must for the kids so when he wakes up that's where my nightmare starts. He really moves a lot and I kept on telling him to stay still. The kittens of Summer can walk already and he just kept on teasing them and letting them follow in his footsteps and sometimes he fights with his cousins. I really had enough with him but I just laugh and Mum told me "Di malalim sah? Engun ana imong anak" I just laugh it off as I really do admire Mum for keeping up with my son's craziness.

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