Childhood

My Childhood Memory

when I was a child, I think that time I remember I was 5years old I live in my grandma [nanay -mother of my father] house, but sad to say I feel that she didn't care about me.

By the way, we are 5 siblings in the family and I'm the 3rd one.

When every time I'm going to school before 1 peso is big enough for our allowance. But when I'm asking my grandma [nanay] for my allowance she always tells me that she has no money left. While my brothers and sisters have their allowance . In my mind there's a question why every time I'm asking for my allowance she always tells me no more money left. But to my brothers and sisters she always gives them allowance . Do my grandma [nanay] loves me? When I have some savings on my piggy bank she always take my savings without my permission . I have a saving before because when my father got home from the city all the money he give to me I will put all of it on my piggy bank. once in a moth month my father visit us in our grandma's [nanay] house, its because he is busy with his work that time.

My Birthday comes

When its my birthday there's always no celebration but for my siblings they always have. I understand that because I know we don't have enough money for it, but I also feel sad slightly, I feel jealous. When I decided to come to my grandma's [lola-mother of my mother] house which near to my grandma [nanay] house, I told to my grandma [lola] and to my auntie about what happen and I cried, because I feel that I'm not belong to them or she didn't like me I think .

So my grandma [lola] and my auntie told me that " don't worry we are here for you, we love you , don't mind what your grandma [nanay] did to you. And they decided that I'm gonna stay with them, so that its I stay with them.

Graduation day of my eldest brother

When that graduation day come [elementary], my auntie told me that I should come and make picture with them and also be part of what ever they gonna do, so I said ok I will be there.

So after I finished all my my duties on house hold chores I left the house and go to the graduation ceremony, but I have have doubt in my mind, what if they ignore me or telling to me that I'm not part of it. But I continue to walk until I see them going home talking and eating bread that time I see them laughing while eating a bread walking in the road, I decided to go the deep wheel near the road just to hide my self to them because I don't want to interrupt them having fun, and I pretend that I didn't see them, I just vowed my head and washed my feet and also drink water. Then I saw my brothers and sisters coming to the deep wheel water to wash their feet , I felt shy that moment I can't say anything even hi to them , I feel uncomfortable .Until they left me on the deep wheel .

After they are gone I continue to walk and decided to go to school even if the ceremony is done, while walking my tears goes down I can't hold it I felt that I don't belong with them. When I been there in the school ground I sat near the stage and cry until my auntie notice me crying, she comes and sat beside me asking why I'm crying what happen , I told her everything and she cried to ,and said to me don't worry I will buy you a bread , stop crying , don't waste your your tears remember were always here for you.

My Graduation Day

This is it, my graduation day in elementary. But before that graduation day comes I decided to come in my nanay's house because I want to borrow some of the nicest dress that my sisters wear it .

My two sister is knowledgeable, they are honor student, always have medal and ribbon while I have nothing .

When I told to my nanay's about the dress that I'm gonna borrow for my graduation day , she refuse and said to me " No , you cannot wear it because you are not honor student, when I heard what my grandma [nanay]said I felt really bad , so I ran away with tear in my eyes.

I told to my lola and to my auntie about what my nanay told to me, they comfort me and said its ok , next time I will buy a nice dress ,don't worry. On graduation day I'm just wear a simple t-shirt and skirt, and guess who is there escorting me, not my lola and not my auntie but my nanay , even if my auntie is there , they decided not to escort me because my nanay is there.

I'm so blessed and thankful to have a lola and my auntie who is always there to support and loving me. I grow up with them until I finished high school.

AND THATS ALL FOR NOW.

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Be fair when it comes of love to your grandchildren and also to your child, because they are part of your blood and also part of your family. What ever happen in the future family is always a family .

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