I had a dream

Good day everyone. Its been 8 days since my mom passed away. Yesterday we came back here in Manila since we have our work and own family to attend to. We left our house yesterday at 12 noon since the lasr trip of the ferry boat is 1pm. Before we leave we took the chance to swim in the ocean few steps away from our house, coz for sure it will take a year before we will be back in our province. We might take the oppurtunity to swim in a beach for free.

We arrived in Manila at 3:45AM. And we reached our home at past 5AM.

Due to some sleepless night because of my mom's burial, I sleep early last night. And I even forgot to eat my dinner. Im just lucky that my husband allowed me to sleep and he is the one who put our baby to sleep. Thats one of the important character of a partner in life that you will choose, someone who will understand what you feel and what you need. And last night what I really need is a long and a good sleep.

Maybe because I was not able to eat dinner, I had a dream that my mom is calling me to eat our dinner together with my father. And I feel happy during that time. Then I just realize that it was only a dream. Ganun pala yung feeling, if you are longing for someone you will be happy by the simple thought that you was with them even in just a dream.

Its been a week and there are still times that I feel sadness suddenly. Having the thought that things that I planned before will not happen ever. I even plan of having her birthday celebration next year, but it wont happen. What make me sad more is the truth that I wont be able to hug her again which I usually do everytime that she is with me. In a way I am glad that I was able ri show her how much I love her but I know that it was not enough.

So all out there, make sure that you were able ro give all the love that you can give to your parents while they are still with you. Coz there would come a time that when you feel like you want to tell them that you love them, you will not have the time.

Thats all for the day.