I don't know

I don't know how I will start this article today. Why did I write this in the first place? What or who pushed me to continue writing this now? Why does my hand keep on typing even though I don't know what to say? Oh great! How did I manage to write the first sentence of this paragraph even though I have no idea what I am talking about?

Yesterday, I saw my friends and other writers taking part in a prompt organized by Miss @JonicaBradley. I was interested in the motive of it; formulate some questions and delivered them in a way that you want. It can be thru poem, fiction, essay, and etcetera.

Honestly, up till now, I don't know what and where to start. Maybe I should jump directly to the questions that I had in my mind? Okay, that sounds like a good idea.

11:30 pm

• Why we are born without our permission?

Why my parents didn't use protection when they decided to make some love? Like hello, you can buy some for such a low price 😂.

But kidding aside, why we didn't have a chance to choose if we want to live in this world. Living in this realm is challenging because every day you need to fight and survive. We are required to excel at almost anything to be on top because being on the bottom leaves us with little to no opportunity. It feels like that all of a sudden it's our responsibility now even in the first place it is not our choice to exist.

It is tiring, isn't it?

11:45 pm

• Did someone or something is controlling us?

Okay, I am avoiding this kind of question since it can cause some misinterpretation. But since my mind won't stop insisting, I will just drop this.

Various religions believe that there's a higher entity that created this world. If we will base on the different religious books, this entity we call God, Allah, Buddha, etcetera is responsible for what happened in the past and until now. We believe that the challenges we are experiencing right now are His plans and according to His grace. If that's the case, it means we are controlled by Him. Or I am wrong?

12:30 am

• Where does the preference for beauty come from?

For Filipinos, we often associate being white as beautiful. This is why the glutathione businesses are always thriving in our country. This kind of beauty bias sometimes gives unrealistic expectations to others.

1:00 am

• Why simple things are complicated and confusing?

If I can only tell them directly what I feel. If I just dare to tell someone that I have feelings for them. But what if?

Come on! Just tell the feeling and then done. However, I might get rejected. What should I do?

1:13 am

• Why I can't sleep?

It's already 1:13 am here while writing this. To be honest, the previous question and this question are somehow correlated. Someone is in my mind right now and I can't decide if I should confess my feelings. It's making me crazy.

Aside from that, why my brain cells were active during these hours? I tend to overthink everything. Look how my brain can remember the most embarrassing moment that happened several years ago but can't remember a math formula.

1:45 am

• Why do I keep on writing this?

I don't know. As I mentioned earlier, I don't have an idea. Maybe my mind is just overactive on producing juicy, random to nonsense thoughts?

Fortunately, drowsiness is visiting me. I can feel the calmness of my breath and the heaviness of my eyelids. I guess this will be the end?

I delivered this prompt more like a personal diary or journal. In this way, I can comfortably share my thoughts.

If you also want to create this prompt, the rules are simple:

1. Write about questions

2. Write 100% original content

3. Write at least 600 words

4. Tag me @JonicaBradley

5. Have fun!

Good luck and thank you for spending time checking out my article 😁.

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