It's Time For Me To Let You Go

Do you have some sort of things that you wanted to achieve in life, but you realized that it's not that worth it? I was in love with that dream as I'm growing. However, I came with the sudden that it is already the right time to let it go. Seems sad, right?

While I was watching Tik Tok videos about my academic plans in life, they gave me a hint to give up. Not because of the sacrifices you need to acquire, but I guess that it's not that just compatible to me. It seems like I need to shift all my plans before it turned it out as my biggest regret.

When my teacher told us on ESP before that you just need to be good at Math if you want to enter on the BSA course, I was fascinated to take that. At first, I thought that it's only solving simple numbers. I really like numbers back then. However, I realized that it's only a thought, and it's very far from reality.

During my Grade 9 days, I was dedicated and motivated at the same time to study well because I was seeing myself progress in Mathematics. Though my grades is not that supposed to be impressive, I can still imply that Mathematics is my favorite subject. My skill in solving formulas before was quite majestic as I can be ahead of my classmates. As a matter of fact, I'm usually a source of my classmates who doesn't clearly understand the lessons. And also, I can still reminiscent the time when I'm often the highest in every exam. Just to be clear, I'm not bragging.

If I were not mistaken, my rank in my Math subject during my junior high moments was always ranging at Top 1 to Top 3. Though I was failing more often, I can still perceive to be a good student. I'm not bragging, huh. My previous teachers before in that subject are freakishly approachable because they will guide you if you didn't understand the lessons.

However, when the pandemic started, I began to be demotivated. This pandemic thought me na may i-bo-bobo pa pala ako. As I answered relentlessly on multiple inquiries why I took ABM instead STEM, the reason behind that is because I love money. Though I picked it because it's presumably related to my course, you can't still admit the fact that I took it because I want to be wealthy.

Going back to my hardships on modular learning, I was having a hard time to answer my modules specifically on General Mathematics. Before, my teachers will gradually teach you how to solve it step-by-step. But now, we are badly needed to read the modules comprehensively, and your teachers will only answer on your queries minimally because they also need to do some papers. We don't have any choice, you know.

Gladly, PhotoMath exists as it's my way to answer all the equations instantly, even I still need to show the solutions. Yeah, you heard it right. This pandemic severely taught me how to cheat. Although I can imply that I passed that subject, I can't still admit that Mathematics is not that fun anymore. For me, it's already a curse since it realized to me how dumb I am. Don't worry, this is just my tool to know if I'm doing fine.

Conversely, we have this subject called Fundamentals of ABM, and my teacher there is just a bit busy on her school papers. It's a bit challenging in my opinion as I've been not taken it on my junior high years. Personally, I became more inspired to read and answer it comprehensively because it's highly related to my dream that I wanted to be.

Even this subject is taking me several hours to complete the financial statement (as in, sobrang tagal ko siyang ma-solve), no one could explain the happiness that I got after I balanced perfectly the debit and credit on the journal entry. If you were my ardent subscriber on noise, you would see how I'm happy with the ending result that I got. Likewise, this subject realized me why I should push myself to be a CPA in the future because I know to myself that I'm not that easy to give up in balancing entries. However, I recently found out that it is not that exactly designed for me. I really need to shift, before it became one of my biggest regrets.

As I'm scrolling down on the Tik Tok videos that I'm seeing on my feed, I've been saw some comments which is related to accounting that there have some BSA students who implied their frustrations. According to what I read, there has a user states that they were more than thirty students before when she is on the first year. But after she graduated, they are only nine, and most of them are not yet CPA.

And also, they told that the passing rate on being a CPA recently is only at 14%, and this occurrence lead me to shift early. I'm still confused what should I take, and my second choice is about Financial Management. Any suggestion, guys?