In the Evening

Being an active content creator during the night serves me a soothing feeling as my mind works without such distraction. The noise coming from my family and interference comes from my notifications has been temporarily gone. Likewise, the only medium that I can employ to write an article is the notebook I'm using for over three months. Initially, I jot down on that notebook about the thoughts lingering in my system which causing me to be awake.

There have some incidence that I’ve been thinking lately if I can get the result that I’m aiming as the seconds dropping by. Personally, I know to myself that I’m being determined on the things that I like to be. Trying to pursue what is the right thing to do is one of the factors I’ve been holding on recently. However, I don’t have an idea if I can hold all the promises that I constructed for my benefit. Out of the sudden, I thought about my dream in the future. Is it specific? Measurable? Attainable? Realistic? Time bound?

As I have replied to the inquiry of the user on Discord as regards to my strand, I desired to take the ABM strand since I want to be rich. Therefore, most of them laughed, and I don’t know to the other ones. Additionally, I replied that it’s the truth since “mukha talaga akong pera” realistically. Just to broaden the topic, I told them my regular life upon my school goals, and how did I'm grueling my best to have sufficient knowledge about the most popular game today which is the Axie Infinity.

Speaking of Axie, I was able to maintain watching educational videos on that game, even I’m aware that I’ll be having a difficulty once I finally hold my account. Though it seems like a piece of cake at first glance, I’m certain that I’ll be comfortable once I already hold my account. I’m still grueling my best to socialize on group chat even most time, we are having a conflict schedules and my English is often loosing due to stress.

As regards to my studies, I can assume that I’m doing well. Not to mention my grades in every quiz I'm answering, but I’m confident that I can pass this year. As long that I’m doing my best without having a competitive mindset, I’ll not be pressured except for doing TikTok. If I’ll hit the top ten spot in our section, do you think that I’ll not be stressed? Just manifesting that I’ll hit the dart with the arrow of my dedication to be in the ‘with honor’ spot.

By the end of this blog, the realization hits me hard if I’ll pursue my dream to be a CPA. Personally, I already decided to fly this dream because I know that it will not be worth it as the time goes by. Even we can imply that I have an intelligence and good knowledge about the fundamentals, I can’t still ensure that there will be a good future ahead of me. Do you have any suggestions what I can replace? Please recommend me some related courses about ABM, and not focused on interaction, since it’s my weaknesses.

Overflowing thoughts doomed me during this late midnight, and I’m not that feeling well upon the goals I like to have. Currently, I’m keeping myself to be motivated on the things I want to acquire. Hope all my endeavor will be worth it, and I’m wishing that my expectations will exceed in my palm. A productive and stressful day, everyone.