Intense Attacks

@Ozzyy, you're a medical student, right? Or who among you here have studied nursing and/or medicine? I want to share to you my symptoms and I wanna know your own opinion and if you can give me a little advice I would highly appreciate it.

Since November, 2020 I have struggled with palpitations and anxiety. Since that day everything is different. I feel useless at home. I feel unproductive 😓. In a few months I have slowly recovered.

Since it's already summer, seasonal flu started to strike the community. It also happened that the number of Covid 19 cases has risen so suddenly.

One night my throat started to itch that I had to cough so hard. The next day, I was coughing and developed runny nose. I immediately look for home remedies and even took over the counter medicines. It lasted for a week that I had to take a sick leave.

I reported for work as soon as I got better. But in the following week, I had a sudden diarrhea so I went home early from work. Took a short nap and when I woke up, I felt light headed that's when I realized I had a fever.

My heartbeat's so fast and loud I could hear it. Then I asked my husband to get me a boiling water so I could do the steam inhalation. After that, my fever disappeared. A few hours later my husband felt hot so I started to panic.

The next day, we felt better but I called my parents to pick up my kids 'coz I'm afraid we might have the virus. I also called my workplace to ask permission and so they could give me options while I seek treatment.

The whole day, I was so paranoid. Checked on my temperature almost every hour and reading about how symptoms of Covid 19 develop day by day.

I was so anxious that I couldn't sleep. So, I called my doctor and asked for help. Undergone front and back X-ray and blood tests. The result all came out negative. Even my blood tests says no infections detected.

My doctor told me that I'm perfectly well, but it seems that I don' t feel right. I don't have a fever, no body aches or headaches but at 4:00 a.m. I felt cold so I have to get my socks on. Sometimes I get shortness of breath due to panic attacks. I have less appetite but sense of smell and taste are there. It's just that I feel weird.

A friend of mine told me to watch out on day 5 onwards after fever 'coz the worst symptoms would come on those days if I really have Covid. So far on my 6th day, I don't feel any aching part of my body. My husband is well but I sometimes feel that my knees are weak.

Maybe you would ask me why we haven' t got tested. Well, sorry to say but this seems to be an issue in my country. A lot of people are losing trust on the government. I'm not against it, in fact I was so eager to get tested but my husband won't allow me to. He's afraid the results might have been manipulated. A lot of people getting a simple seasonal flu and doesn't feel anything but still get a positive result. That's why too many people doesn't trust the accuracy of Covid tests these days.

Another reason is that we are feeling perfectly well. Other than my muscle weakness nothing is wrong with me. We can just stay at home and take care of ourselves. While if we get the test and if ever it comes out positive, we will be admitted to a hospital and I'm afraid I might get worst being alone in a hospital bed.

I feel like I have serious anxiety problem. I cried a lot as I read a lot of google searches. I can't help it. I keep praying to feel better. The more I read, the more I get anxious and feel even weaker. But I observed myself feeling better when talking to friends and relatives. I forget my weakness. So, I stopped reading.

There are times I would always try to listen to my body if I'm really doing fine. I can feel the muscle weakness, it's there but manageable. I feel sleepy at times but I realised I need to take a walk or some simple stretchings.

Dr. gave me B Vitamins and I observed when I started taking it my knees and legs feels tired. So I thought maybe I need to ecercise more while taking the B complex? Maybe this could help give me better blood circulation. I don't know what to do right now. I hope I get better in the following days.

The only thing I put in mind is what my doctor had told me. "There's nothing wrong with your health". It's just me, I know. I guess doctor's advice is the best words to think this time. He said there's nothing wrong, I will trust what he said.

What do you think is my problem then? 😓

Please pray for me. I guess that's what I really need right now.