I'm looking on a folder with images of my kids and see the baby photos of my second child, Elise. I feel so guilty because I realized I didn't take a lot of photos when she was about a few days old. She was small and fragile, weighed 2.7 kilograms. When I held her in my arms the first time, I was shocked that she was so lightweight. Her face was very small. Unlike Alexandre, who was born at 3.8 kilograms. I got excited with his round and chubby cheeks. And I found it difficult to hold him the first time, as a first-time mom.
I showed my husband the baby photos when Elise was a few days old. I told him the difference back then and now. Now at 5 months, she has chubby cheeks and she smiles a lot. She is a super happy baby now.
My husband joked that I am a bad mama. I felt sad but he told me that I just don't have the time to take several photos of her now that we have two kids. With Alexandre, I had all the time to take several photos and videos with him. But with Elise, it's seldom to take videos just alone with her.
Well, imagine, how can I take photos and videos with your second baby when your firstborn also wants attention? So that's the problem that I don't have the luxury anymore.
For sure, if I have to check my portable hard drive, there are some folders that are full of Alexandre's photos from his first few months. It was like every day or many days in a week I take photos of him.
Another reason that I didn't take photos of her is that she was always sleeping. So I let her sleep in order not to disturb her. Then, I will give my attention to our son. It also ends up taking several photos of him instead.
I feel like I'm being unfair to my daughter because it feels like I have a favorite subject to take photos into when they were a baby. What if she will ask me for baby photos for a school project? What if she will never like the other baby photos because she has too few choices? What if I create a video presentation about her but I can only present a few photos of her as a baby?
Now, she is 5 months old. She is blooming like a flower showing her beauty while gaining weight. But I am just too guilty I cannot even use my DSLR camera when it can capture more beautiful photos.
Here's another reason why I seldom take photos of her. It's because I was too busy giving her milk non-stop because she was so lightweight. Indeed, I don't have the luxury to take several photos of her. I don't want to take photos of her latching on me. Oh, I just remember that I had many photos of Alexandre latching on my boobs.
But with Elise, she was very good at latching my boobs for milk that I never wanted to disturb her. I was also very tired that I just wanted to sleep. Because she was too small and fragile, I don't want that something bad happens to her because of my stupidity. So, I was very careful with her all the time from her first weeks to three months.
Face-Off: 4 Months Elise vs 6 Months Alexandre
I made a side-by-side photo of Elise and Alexandre wearing the same pajama at different times. Oh, my little penguins! You are so cute and adorable.
Twinning Photo of Elise and Alexandre
So here's a twinning photo of my kids at 21 months and 4 months old wearing the same clothes of different sizes.
Aww I love the last photo.. Priceless! And the smile is just soo cute!