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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Someone advised me at some point that I just have to write that I am lazy to write whenever I feel so. So here I go... It has been a week that I have been ignoring my writing voice... I feel so frust...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

When the road isn't as smooth as I want it to be

When life isn't what I wanted it to be, I run to the places where I used to hide. Behind a book. Behind words and my self-declared poetry. I am consoled by the beauty of the sky... When life isn't w...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

The void that was left that is inevitable

And yes I also attended a seminar. For professional growth. For learning or relearning things. To take a break from the usual. And yes, I have attended a three-day seminar. I thought it was just three...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Water thudding, I wake up scowling

The water drops are louder than my snore. I was awoken. Irritated and tired. I waited a few seconds. It didn't stop thudding. Let it drop let it drop. I used my pen to talk about it. After all, I am...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Reality is but a dream

I am a bit shaky. I don't know what to write. I toggle my brain. But my heart is lonely. I try to be a poet, but my words fail me. And I can only write much as I can write. I don't know the reason I...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

A park to walk each day

I walked the park leading up to the place where I earn my keep. I smell the fresh air amidst the sweaty joggers of the morning. I took out my phone to write just because I can't resist the urge. Non...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

A mobile Saturday

I did nothing this day. I just washed the clothes using a washing machine. I rinsed them and put them on the spin dry. I put them out to dry. But had to get them inside the house when it rained prema...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

What if I wake up and my illness is gone?

What if one day I wake up to a perfectly healthy body? No fluid retention, gout is gone, BP back to normal. Will I still do the things that I have always done? Will I change? Will I reflect on mist...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

In life, we also need to know how to spot the danger and go to safety

I go out and I get lost. And I feel overwhelmed by the volume of the things I realize. I oftentimes become unaware of the negative effects of my getting lost in the crowd. So when I realize the dange...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

What is the right way to live?

Caution: Ahead is just jumbled thoughts and nonsensical ramblings... Skip if you are in a hurry :-) To wake up each morning, brush one's teeth, take a bath, scrub the dirt away from the body, dress a...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Feeling invisible

Plants have seasons to bear fruits. Weather changes. Crops produced depend upon the season. So are people, they have their seasons. But for an eccentric person like me, I always wanted to somehow att...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Preparation in almost everything--a must for me

To not take things for granted is a resolution that has been crossing my mind every once in a while. I told myself that it should not be a one-year goal or a two-year goal. It must be a lifelong prac...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Making sense of a coffee-less life

A coffee-less life... Bow! Have you ever been addicted to coffee? And suddenly, you needed to quit and should not have a sip forever? I know, I know. The feeling of helplessness. While the rest are...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Uplift yourself when you're down

Have you ever felt down for no particular reason? As if you are being pulled down by an unknown force? It dawned on me that I have been having self-pity. It has stemmed from the fact that I have not...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

I will keep writing, it's what this shortening is telling me

But I will keep writing. I am triggered. Not my choice but I have no choice. I should keep writing because life is too short to pause writing. Though my heart is weary, my soul is beaming with inexpl...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

To dream under the tree like in the drawing left behind a long forgotten table

It is coming to an end. But that is a 'perhaps.' Just a 'perhaps.' Life is coming to an end and I feel sorry for my dreamy self. How about that drawing left forgotten somewhere in the old house? It l...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

I already drained my tasty cup, too soon but now I'm done

I didn't realize how fast I was drinking my cup. I drained it before I know it. And now, I am so done. There will be consequences for sure and I guess I have to live with them. Stubborn heart, playin...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

I went straight into the mouth of doom

If I valued my happiness and not others, I wouldn't have gone straight into the mouth of doom. Waking up always trying to feign that I am okay... Walking without confidence, shoulders down and eyes...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Have I grown tired of you, my love?

I so wanted to write stuff these past few days. The problem is I was emptied. For whatever reason, those seemingly endless thoughts I have had before that I can't wait to bring on paper disappeared....

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

The pain is there even if it is not too much

I sinned unto myself by enjoying much of life. No, abusing is the more appropriate word. I have abused life's pleasures. And now I am suffering the consequences of my actions. The pain stays after th...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Time for an exercise

If you're thinking about jogging or running, you're quite wrong. I am referring to writing with pen and paper. It's been a long time since I have done this. Two weeks or just a few days without writi...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Almost

I almost bid goodbye. To this writing journey. To this platform. Luckily, there are these magical moments I could cling to for dear writing's life. At dawn, when the night meets day... In the after...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Fading into oblivion

Faint. It is no longer that strong. I begin to not see it that frequently anymore. I become helpless to the prospect of having it as reality. If only I can realize it... But the limitations hold me...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Paying the high price for being indulgent and a loner

Perhaps, it is a costly lifestyle to be a loner. Most of the restaurants that I go to are those that offer expensive food and services. I don't like people-packed places. I don't mean to spend dearly...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

I will slow down writing here for a while

It's not that I don't have time because we can always make time. But yeah, that is it, I probably cannot make time to write every single day here. Hence I may just publish once in a while. For times...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

The game of life

Life sure is not that easy. Why does the letter ‘o’ in the English alphabet have to have the same shape as the number zero? But people are not that worried either. They seem to be alright with the s...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Forever sigh

What will I do? What should I do? I've set my eyes, and they are on you. Shed light on my path. Meet my eyes and show me your heart. I will not cry but I will forever sigh. Show me mercy and lighten...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Cry but I will not let you

This little girl's using her tears to get what she wants. It makes me mad. A while ago upon waking up, she saw the cellphone that was left on top of the side table and she began asking for it so she...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

Happiness

Do I believe myself? Yes, I do. I am just so happy! Why am I happy? Because I have a new laptop! Yes, this is in some way a silly expression but I am really happy. Haha! I can't contain it so I am e...

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@ideallife · 1 year ago

See you but not so soon

The thief of life I found myself writing last night. I suddenly got up in the middle of the night and wrote something on pad paper that has been inserted into my notebook. I just knew that so many t...

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