Christians: It is a blessing.

I want to share a few stories that happened to me lately. Recently there too many people at my workplace are detected positive Covid-19 and they needed to be quarantined for 5 to 10 days at least. This brings to the lack of manpower in our whole system. We, the leftover that survives or escaped the infection needs to do a little bit of extra work to cover for them and hang on until everything subsides if it will subside.

If I tell you that it is not tiring, not stressful and not bordering me, I am lying. Every day, we need to be an extra alert, extra cautious and extra precaution. I wonder if all of that does help to prevent the infection.

Naturally, nobody can suppress human needs for freedom. Not everyone can stay at home and continue restricting themselves from doing the things they love such as travelling, recreation, hanging out with friends and family, sports, and a lot more. They deserve to do things that make them happy for the sake of a healthy mind.

What kills people more than a Covid can do?

Mental illness. This illness can make living people look dead or make a happy go lucky person die tomorrow. An unhealthy mind will kill people with or without a vaccine.

I have a patient that we managed to help to stand and transfer to a wheelchair. He is big and tall. It took all our strength to help him bit by bit every day. His daughter is smiling at his father progression in the process. She is one in a million caretaker. A very good one.

The patient is improving well but the day he is supposed to go home to her daughter, his condition changed. Deteriorated by day and not long after he is gone. It is sad for us. He is not here anymore but the memory of him and all the effort we gave him is still lingering in our hearts. I don't ever want to forget this kind and motivated patient.

That is one of the mental depressing causes that we need to face every day. Hopeless and disappointed. Sadness and fear. Will he or she make it? He or she is doing very well. Why? If we keep questioning, we will break down. We learned to let out our emotion at once, let it go and move on. Sounds cruel? It is a need because another patient is waiting for us. We can't give up easily.

Last week.

I was very upset with two of my patient that keep refusing to do their exercises. They have been refusing me for almost a week and I am only able to treat them once in that week.

This week.

I should remember not to be upset next time. Both of the patients are tested positive for Covid and I have to go for a test as required. Luckily my test came out negative and I can continue working.

Back to the tiring situation.

The leftover needs to keep on working on the double. Well, sounds frustrating? It is not.

It is a blessing.

The moment our status changed from 'suspected' to 'Fit work', we are blessed. Being able to keep working is a blessing because we are still safe from the virus. This is what I told my friends and I believe it.

Being rejected by the patients, being able to cover for the quarantined and being able to keep working, is a blessing.

Strong heart.

I changed some of my daily profile names to 'strong heart' as a reminder for myself.

To remind me that if I can't handle my feelings and mix emotion with work, I am going to break down.

I need to work professionally and be strong for those I treat. If I am weak, they will be worse.

It's not going to be easy but I believe I can do the best I can.

That is the only thing I can do.

You should too. Do best you can. We are not going to win this fight alone but we should be able to win this together. No matter who we are.