This part of my life happened around two years ago when I and my ex-boyfriend(now husband) decided to get married.

I got pregnant early and we both are very happy with the news. I am elated. Due to my husband, previous marriage is already got a blessing in the church, we did not get our blessing. We did not have a ceremony in the church and I was devastated.

The previous wife also had gotten married again. Why can't we have ours?

Losing Hope.

We tried going through all the procedures needed and after almost 4 years trying, I gave up. There is always something that preventing our forms to be accepted, always got something missing.

I start thinking, "Does God rejected me too?".

Having faith.

It was very disappointing, living with tears and losing hopes over and over again but my faith kept me going. I told my self."God did not reject anyone in the bible, it is impossible for God to reject me. If I am rejected, I would not be having a life full of blessing."

It did take me a lot of times to see al the blessing I have in my life but at last, I manage to see each of the blessings but my first pregnancy turns out to be a miscarriage. It took us a few years until I start to give up again.

Prayers.

My husband brought me to the grotto to pray. He prays and I just sit down there talking to myself.

I said, "God I know I have a lot of money problems and we do not have a good home to raise a child but I am ready to face it all with your help.

A few weeks after that, we got good news. I am pregnant and now our little girl is 2 years and 4 months old.

It is hard to keep my faith with all the rejection and disappointments, but I always find it again through others.

Some say that you can see the face of Jesus in the face of the other. I cannot see it but I believe I can feel the presence of God whenever I see others doing good deeds.