2 Years After Breakup

I will never forget the day me and my ex broke up. It was two years ago today—the 19th of April, 2020.

We were in a relationship for a long time. Now, I'm not going to lie. She was gorgeous. But looks aren't everything, as they say. And what those people are saying is true. Unfortunately, there's a lot more to life than simply having good looks.

I wish I could say it was just a matter of our personalities clashing, but it wasn't that simple. In fact, at first, we got along pretty well. We had similar interests and could spend hours talking about life. We even spent time together after school. That worked out really well for us for years, until one day when it just… didn't anymore.

I don't really know what happened—things just changed slowly over time until she realized I wasn't the man for her anymore. It's been two years since then, and while I've learned a lot of things in that time, there's one big thing I've learned above all else: relationships are hard.

I thought it'd be easy to find someone. But it wasn't. There were so many people who weren't right for me, or who weren't ready to be with me.

And when I finally did find someone who was amazing and who made me feel safe and loved, it didn't work out because of something really stupid on our part. I was selfish and impatient and stuck in my own head—and I know she wasn't perfect either, but she was trying her hardest to do what was best for both of us. And I wasn't.

She wasn't perfect; no one is. But she was mine and she took care of me when I needed her most. And when we broke up, it felt like losing her meant losing a big part of myself. It meant having to regain my independence and find new ways to cope with my stress levels and panic attacks without someone else helping me through them.

I'm grateful for her still, though. She taught me a lot about myself, about what I want in a relationship, and how to be more patient with others—and with myself. And now that I've had some time to get over the hurt she caused by just wanting what was best for herself too (even if it hurt me), I think we both ended up growing from the experience—and we're both better people now.

I'm grateful for everything we shared together—the memories, the history, the love—but most of all, I'm grateful for what came after: the chance to get to know myself better than ever before, and the opportunity to find someone who knows how to love me completely and unconditionally.

Two years have passed since that fateful day in 2020—and it feels like just yesterday. But then, something weird happened: life went on. It turns out that as much as it feels like the end of the world when you're going through a break up, it turns out that life doesn't stop just because you failed.

And the truth is that even though a relationship may have ended, your life did not. You still have people who love you—even if you don't feel like it in the moment—and there are still things in your life that are meaningful to you even if it doesn't feel like it right now.

If you're going through a break-up, or if you've gone through one recently and still feel down about it, know that in time things will get better. You'll find someone new that fits better with who you are now.

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