Days in the hospital
My mother-in-law is 80 years old, and she is half-paralyzed for a decade. My partner is the oldest among 6 siblings, he had two sisters but in the other country that's why we are the one who is responsible in taking care of their mother. We are together for almost five years and we have a 3-year-old boy. In the past few years, her mother had a caregiver but we are lucky enough if her caregiver lasts for 3 months, it is automatic for us that if the caregiver leaves, we are in again.
April 5, 2020
We took my mother-in-law to the hospital because she always has body pain and she cannot take it any longer, most of the time she cried and want to die. That time we are amid high cases of coronavirus every member of the family is scared and even if they say nothing we know we are the ones who will take her to the hospital.That moment I was mental block because my son is only 2 years and a half and I will be the one who will go to the hospital and being exposed, all I have that time is the courage that God will never allow me to be in a bad condition, I am doing it for sake of my mother-in-law.
At the emergency room I was the only one who answers all the questions about her maintenance and when did it start.
I saw my mother-in-law crying and saying she is worried about my son but I calm her down that is my strength to hide my weakness, wherever I was surrounded by the people who it feels week I gain my strength because somebody needs it.
The doctors said she needs to be observed for a few days, and that night I was the only one who can take care of her.
I did not sleep that night because of the fear as much as possible I diverted my attention that it will take a few days.
April 6, 2020
When I bought something in the cafeteria someone talking on the phone saying that her mother is positive and we are in the same building, my heart is beating so fast that time and suddenly my tears are flowing I had nobody to tell what I feel that time, in my mind if I told my partner about it he will also worry for me. I close my eyes and begin to pray and for a minute I went back to the room and as if I am okay.
April 7, 2020
All the laboratory exams came and the doctor said that her uric acid is so high that's why she feels pain, there is a lot of medication to be given most are capsules. My mother-in-law cried and tell me that she wanted to go home but I told her that the doctor said she needs to be observed for another day.
April 8, 2020
After she took the medicine she vomits because of the medications and requested if there is a liquid form of that drugs because every time she takes it she vomits. I feel exhausted at that time because my partner is calling me and my son want me to go home, my son is crying in silence he just saw my son in the corner telling where is mommy? and then my mother-in-law feels helpless. That day ended with a very heartbreaking moment when my son called and told me to come home.
April 9, 2020
When the doctor came into our room my mother-in-law cried asking if we can go home the doctor said that okay and then I settle all the accounts and called my partner to that we are going home. We arrive at home almost dinner I was so weak at that time but I really need to be strong not just for myself but for my family.
There is a part two of her hospitalization and its been a year since it happens and until now we are the ones who took care of her and I was blessed that I did not get the virus but that whole year of anxiety for me.
pandemic depression again...
We are in a time of uncertainty because we are still fighting with a virus and many of us suffer from depression, there are also some people who already experienced it but unaware that they are already suffering from it.
Depression is a very serious matter if we just ignore it, serious problems may arise. That's why it is very important that we immediately know the signs and take action to overcome them.
There is a lot of news who suffer from depression and end up in their lives some develop serious mental illness and have issues in their health. We must be very aware because it may save our lives and others.
**There are five common signs that a person is suffering from depression.**
1. Constant sadness-It is normal for us to be sad but if you feel it most of the time, it is a sign that you are depressed.
2.Constant fatigue- If we did a lot of work its either in our house or at work we might experience fatigue but if we feel it most of the time it is also a warning that we are in a process of depression.
3.Sleep problem -When you wake up in the middle of the night and you feel strange and can't sleep anymore or on the other hand you feel that you want to sleep more.
4.Health problem -Drastic weight loss/weight gain. most people who experienced depression lose their appetite and some eat more.
5. Addictions of all sources -People are more engaging with different vices and they get addicted to it.
**Causes of depression**
1.It can be biological, physical, hormonal. chemical. When a pandemic strikes in our country most of us stay at home, less physical connection to others, and going to different places that make our lives in balance and affect us. most of us are at home and no chance of getting enough sunlight that enhances serotonin and anti-stress hormone the possibility of depression may arise.
2.Present crisis-When somebody loses their job because of the pandemic, debts, everyday cost of living and their loved ones who passed away all of this may cause depression.
3.Unaddressed trauma when someone experienced trauma a long time ago and then something got refresh that moment.
4.Constant stress and burnout- In things that we make a lot of effort and suddenly others don't appreciate it and we might feel helpless.
5.Low self-worth- When you constantly hate yourself, you don't value yourself anymore it will cause it over a long time.
**Actions to overcome depression**
1.Get help from a friend or a psychiatrist, if we feel all the signs we must seek help from others and accept that we need help
2.Move daily -We need to do things we usually do, it is very important that our body must be in balance, exercise gets sweat will ease our suffering from depression. 3.Nourish yourself- We must be very aware of our health especially in this pandemic eat healthy foods and replenish it with plenty of water.
4. Connect with others it is very important that our communication with our loved ones will help us to overcome depression, their smile, thoughts with each other is very important.
5.Stay connected with people who are very optimistic in life and be grateful 90%of our lives is a blessing only 10 % of it is our problems. Thankfulness is the key that can help dispel depression. Think of some of the happiest people we know. You would notice that these people are also thankful people.
One year passed and you are still here be grateful enough to appreciate every smile that you have seen because others have no chance to see it again. We may not experience the things that we get used to but still, we are alive.
a day with my 3 years old boy
These past few days my sons are so addicted to watching kids' shows on YouTube but I make sure that he can learn with the content that he watched. Most of the time I asked him what he wants to watch and if I think it is not appropriate for his age, I explained it is not good for kids and he will eventually agree. As a mother I always want my son to learn new things, there are a lot of channels on YouTube that is appropriate for his age most of the time I was shocked about his progress, as a 3 years old kid but I feel that his mental and emotional age is over 3 years old. His favorite is dinosaurs, he knows the names of some dinosaurs,blippi , I really want to share my journey as a mother with my 3 years old son.
In the morning:
When he woke up at 6 am and I am not in his sight, he knows I am in the garden and I will ask him if he turned off the electric fan? And he will say "yes mommy" then he will ask me if he can help me in watering my plants and I will say yes and thank you then he will greet my plants "good morning plants" after that, he will say "mommy I am hungry" I will eat then can I play after" He knows I will not allow him to play if he did not eat. After he ate his breakfast, he saw his father fixing the motor and he will immediately run and ask his father to help. Most of the time he wants to help his father in fixing the motor and our jeep, he knows some tools and after they finished he will clean the tools with towels and wash his hands. My mother-in-law is paralyzed who sat in the wheelchair most of the time told me that my son got the chair and washed the dishes in the sink and she is so proud of what my son did.
Lunchtime:
While I am cooking he knows the smell and cheerfully said is that a fish? and I will say yes. He loves to eat fish and vegetables, one of his favorites is sauteed squash with oyster sauce. Banana he can eat 2 large of it. My son's weight is 20kls I know he is overweight but I make sure that he eats healthy foods, no junk foods, candies, and sodas. Then after he ate his food, after we ate our lunch he knows that a nap is important he will get his favorite pillows and go to bed.
After a nap:
He will ask me if he can go and play with his cousin and I will allow him because we had an agreement that when he gets a nap he can play outside before dinner he will be back and asked if he can eat, after that he will play his favorite toy lego most of the time he will construct robots and ship after he will just pick all his toys and back where he got it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gxrhiUBFNJ0&ab_channel=EvaArneLoyolahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e35HmhAlC_Y&ab_channel=EvaArneLoyolahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0r9pswRp_fo&ab_channel=EvaArneLoyola
Every mother wants their children to be smart but we really need to guide them to have become better and good people with care in their surroundings and willingness to help anyone. I am truly blessed with my son at the time he had tantrums but as a mother it is manageable.
dreams and daydreaming
A dream will be a daydream if we do not make it into reality.
Did you still remember your dreams that you make into a reality?
How did you make your dreams into reality?
What did you feel when your dreams become reality?
It was last week that I had watched a korean novela it is count your lucky star when the lead actor Dao Ming Si as Calvin said to his assistant editor chief that" dream will be a daydream if you can't make it into reality" There are many people who had a dream some make it into reality and some still dreaming to make it into reality.
When I was a grade school student, my dream is to become a novel writer maybe that time I am reading a lot of romantic pocketbooks and I had tried to write romantic stories in my notebook and my friends love to read it in our vacant time and I am inspired to write more because they love it. Most of my stories is about a student who had a crush and their journey on how they become a lover . I was young and most of the things that I really want to do is to write it in my notebook and diaries. When I was in high school I slowly forgot to write in my diaries because of the hectic schedule but as much as possible there are still stories that I made. In college, I also write our script for our stage performances, it was the best feeling that I saw my script and there putting it up into the stage and it is also me who directed it and we all got an A for that performance. After college, my dream is still a dream because I graduated as a midwife not related to my dream as a writer, but still, faith leads me into reading .cash.
Most of us dream for what our heart desires no matter if we achieve it but what matters most is what we did to make it into reality. There was a saying that dream big because it is free, but to make it into the reality you must have a lot of courage to overcome all the rejections and failures to make it.
Set a goal for your dreams. Our goals in life are a pattern of how our dreams will become a reality. Our dreams are the final destinations of our goals and it is the best feeling when we achieve them.
Most people set aside their dreams because of others like the influences of their family but what your heart truly desires in time you will just realize that even if you did not achieve you did your best to make it into reality.
There are a lot of successful stories on how they become successful in life because they dream of it and make it into reality. We really have a lot of dreams in our lives it is a fuel that makes our lives have passion in whatever we want to do in life.
my partner in life
My mother-in-law is 80 years old and paralyzed for almost a decade, his son who supposed to be my partner for almost five years. The first time I saw her she was starring at me and asked me why I choose her son to be my partner? My partner and I had an age gap of 22 years most people said that he is just like my father but I am not bothered with the way they think about us what matters most is that we are contented with each other. I answer her question honestly, I told her that" I saw how my partner loves her that's why I know he can be a good husband to me", she nods and remained in silence.
He took care of his mother since he got widowed since his daughters all have their own families. I saw him did the dirty dishes, and it is not usual for a man to do that thing and taking care of her mother in that situation, that time I know he is such a good man. There was a time that her mother and I are not on good terms but he respects it until come that I took care of his mother in the hospital and I know he was so happy that time because we are okay, and I love him so much that he gave me a lot of respect.
My partner is widowed with two daughters his eldest daughter is the same as my age.There was a time that I called him as my older brother"Kuya".I was so depressed that time when I met him, the bad relationship led me to him, some will said that he is just my rebound,but time reveal my true feelings for him. H e was the man I had ever dreamed of.
A man who will be there in every second of my life. I have been in a terrible relationship that leads to physical abuse. I was traumatized, it lasts for almost 7 years until I left my ex-partner.I saw the worst person in him, he was such a bad son in her mother t no respect at all but most of the time I convinced myself he might change but that time did not come.My expartner is very irresponsible mybe that's why God gave me a man who will love and be there for me.Every time I am with him I know he will do his best to protect me and he never failed to prove it,from the time that I got pregnant he took care of me until now we had a 3 years old son he love us everyday of his life.
He always made me feel that I am the most beautiful woman in the world,he always told me that I am so beautiful in every single way. Every woman dreamed that their man will always make them feel that they are the only woman in their life.
A very sensitive man that knows the things that made me feel mad in one look he knows that I am not okay and he definitely do things that will make me feel good.He never raised his voice on me most of the time I know that Iam so predictable in my moods but he definitely understands my feelings
He gave me a comfortable life not much but I am very contented with what we had right now, in every trying hard time he never failed to prove to me that things will be better.
In every relationship, unconditional love and respect are very important to age gap for us is never a problem because we always compromise with each other.
best
As a mother, we all want the best for our children but most of the time we did our really best, but it's not enough for them to see all the sacrifices we had done for them just to give them the best.
Have we ever questioned ourselves if we are really doing our best as a mother?
Best for me is that when we did it for the welfare of our children. Basic needs are not enough for us to give our children. We can give them the most delicious food but it is the best for them? Most of the food that tastes delicious nowadays is not healthy. We must prioritize what is healthy for them so that they can grow with a healthy mind. A healthy mind is a happy life.
We can give them expensive clothes but it is the best for them, what matters for me as a mother is that they feel comfortable in what they are wearing,most people who buy expensive clothes prepare to choose it because of the quality but there are less expensive and have the same quality, we really need to choose those things for them to realize that expensive things are not the best for them but how they feel when wearing it, most can afford it but we must set an example that there are other important needs to be attained.
Most parents believe that big houses can give joy to their children but by giving them they need to work hard and sacrifice time for their children. I wonder why those people in the low-cost houses able to raise their children well compared to those who live in a mansion. I grew up in a big house but still, it feels empty most of the time all the family member are busy in their rooms noot unlike those family who has little houses but yet still close to each other and for me, it is the best as a family to be close to one another.
In this millennial stage of our lives, our children grow so fast in the hands of high technology, in one click most of the question of our children has been answered by the gadgets on the other hand's communication between parents are being compromised they grew up with a wall because they think that they don't need their parents anymore and spend less time with them.
The world today is so alarming that's why we must give our children the best by making them realize what is important in this life.
It is important for as a mother to be an example that we give thanks to our beloved father Almighty in heaven asking for His guidance and protection in this life, because whatever happens to us they also have God in their lives, prayer is the best sword in all the uncertainty in this life, even if we are gone God is there to be with them.
We must lead them by example on how we can do good to others in spite of all the bad things life can bring us. The best is to be good and do good to others.
a journey of a daughter
In my 36 years of existence in this world, I had been in different places a journey that gave me a lot of lessons and memories that I will treasure until the last breath of my life. I will write an article about my journey in this world because for me it is never-ending lessons on how we can forgive, make good things for others, and how self-love is very important. I will start my journey as a daughter.
I was born on June 25, 1984, as I saw on my birth certificate it was 10 pm. It sounds crazy but every time I remember my birthdate I got so emotional to remember all the heartaches I had experienced in life. Not just like typical parents who are excited to see their born child it's on the other side. When I am 18 years old, that is the only time that I saw my mother. Most of my relatives told me bad things about my mother, but I am blessed that I have my father on my side until 5 years old. I t was heaven for me as I remember those times that he carried me in his back when we are in Baclaran, we went to mass and roamed around and bought me a lot of toys especially barbies.
It was the most precious moment I had with my father he was young then but he carried me to make me feel that I am much secured with his attention and that is the first time I felt secured and loved. I can barely remember those time I had him while he was in his friends gathering all of his friends adore me and call me "beauty" He was my king at that time and I am his princess he treat me like a princess, all those nights that I am sick he is in my side but it did not last long when I am 6 years old my grandmother decided to gave me with her sister that is one of the saddest parts of my life, they taking me away from my father, they thought that it was the best for me.
The journey of a lonely daughter begins.
It was the worst feeling that I had felt at that time, I can barely recall that I hold in the bars of the window so that they can't take me and scream as hard as I can and my father is not there that time and it breaks my heart. As the days go by loneliness is driving me crazy. when I am in high school I committed suicide most of the time because I really can't express the sadness I had in my heart, my father will just visit me once a year. I really don't have friends because after school I went home and that is my life until college.
I am an obedient daughter that time all I had to do is to follow all their instructions for they said that is for my own good. I studied too hard in college without friends my seatmate is my friends after school going back again to a lonely house. That house for me is very lonely we are just two in the house when someone will look at the house it was beautiful for them but it was so empty for me. It was spacious with 3 rooms beautiful living rooms full of appliances and a dirty kitchen with a wide back yard full of plants but it was nothing for me that time. It felt that I was there to obey everything that they said. Until I graduated and pass the board exam it is such an accomplishment for me and a reward for all the good things that they had done with me.
At the time that I graduated my father is not there because his auntie doesn't want him to be with me. I was so depressed at that time but he told me that he is so proud of me.
This is just part 1 of my journey as a daughter. In this part I must say that not all child is given a chance to be with their parents, as much as possible we must be grateful enough to all the blessings that our creator gave us, we might feel depressed for all the challenges in life but we must not forget that we are all here in a journey that our ending is out of our sight that's why we must have the courage to live each day as it is our last.
my son
When I saw my son who is about 3 years and a half tapping my mother-in-law's back because she is vomiting and getting water I am so proud of him because at his age he already knows how to care for someone. My partner in life is the eldest among 6 siblings and his mother is suffered from a stroke and been paralyzed for almost 10 years. We are the ones who give all the needs we can give. She is 80 years old last December 30. At first; it was so hard for us to give most of our time to her because I had my son he also needs our time and attention but as the days had passed; I was shocked because he cared for his grandmother. He saw me doing all the chores taking care of him and her grandmother,most of the time I was so exhausted that I really don't have time for myself, and my body feel so weak plus all the anxiety of will the future will lead us. My partner has no time to work because her mother needs to be attended most of the time,but when I saw my son doing the care we give with his grandmother it is all worth it,because at his age he started to care.
My son is very sensitive to different emotions at his age he knows how to protect us.I remember when my old neighbor started a fight with me about what I did in my garden she humiliated me my son run and told his father and hug me and told my neighbor to stop and telling "hey she is my mommy" in tagalog "oi mommy ko to" in his little words he touched my heart to deeply.He is the reflection of all the action I did in everyday living.
Every day all his gesture surprises me I really want to discipline him so that when time comes he can be a good citizen in our country.Whenever we buy him toy I always told him to take care of it and put it in a proper place where it should be at first it was hard to implement but one day even if I dont ask him to arrange all his toys he did it by his self and when his playmate play with our house he always want to get back all the toys they had played.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gxrhiUBFNJ0&ab_channel=EvaArneLoyola
He loves his father so much most of the time he doesn't want his daddy to work, this video is always his scenario when he knows that his father will go out somewhere.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WRmMoVIhJuY&ab_channel=EvaArneLoyola
Every time he saw his father wet in sweat he automatically will get a towel and rub his father's back and hair to dry it up. I was so happy when I saw them like that even if we don't have much but what matters most is we have each other.I really love plants so every day we go to our garden to water our plants and he helps me and says goodmorning to my plants. He definitely had tantrums that call my attention but I always make sure to be there to calm him.
Raising our children is a very tough thing to do because the future of our country is in their hands and we need to make sure that they will grow up as good people who will care for and protect one another, and most important of all They must have fate with our Father almighty. How we treat them will reflect in their personality that's why it so important to set a good example at a very young age so that when they grow up those good examples will be a habit.
I am so excited to see him with good traits that's why I'm very careful with all of my actions.
Give thanks
When you open your eyes and you see the sunlight shine in the morning
Can you please close your eyes and give thanks?
Because there are many people who cannot see the sunlight shine in their lives.
When your loved one greeted you good morning
Smile and give thanks.
Because there are people who had lost their loved ones.
In every step that you have is a beautiful blessing.
Give thanks and have a grateful heart.
There are many people who dreamed to walk again.
As you sit at the table to eat, please don't forget to give thanks on the other side of life.
There are many people who had nothing to eat.
As you perform your work have a kind heart to appreciate because most of the people lose their job.
When you got home be thankful that you arrived safely because some people are not able to come home.
Pay attention to your loved ones and never forget to make them feel how blessed you are that they are still in your life.
Life is too short so make every second of your life meaningful.
We have eyes to see the beautiful things that God-given us but we really have to open our hearts to appreciate even our consequences in life are still a blessing.
I have noticed that whenever I comment or anyones article in read.cash it goes to SPAM. Two of the writers I look up to noticed it.
I wonder if you could please remove me under SPAM so I could get better upvotes and engage with other writers as well?
This is what I sent to them... The email address is: hello@read.cash.
They havent really replied but I just noticed that I was not on spam after 3 days I guess when I tried to comment on some articles.
Also, I dont think you were tagged as SPAM.
boyband part 1
I will admit that my junior years faded so fast but the music get me back to the past like a time machine....
Have you ever experience that when you heard certain music, you remember some part of your past? It is just like a time machine for me.
Music for me is like a soul longing to be connected to anyone and bring different emotions. I am in my late 30's old enough to appreciate beautiful songs. I really love listening to music in different genres. Even though I am old I can honestly admit that I know the trend in music industry. Those tik tok songs that hooked me and entertain me so much.
Most of the millennials love Kpop but in my time Boyband.
Kpop is the most latest trend in the music industry that has its own army a very well-known BTS and Black pink. They are always trending on social media. Eventhough I really dont know the meaning the beat is very tempting to dance like them.
I will just bring back my younger years to the music I really love and full of memories that I had cherished in my heart.
In the early 90's this is the counterpart of millennials Kpop. Does anyone still recognize them now?
korean songs part II
Yesterday I wrote an article about Korean songs behind those beautiful songs is their drama that's been so special in my heart. Music for me also has souls that touched someone's life. I will just give credit to@ mr .adrianlover who upvote and relate to my article and most especially remind me of the most beautiful drama that I had watched "Dream High" yesterday I really can't remember the title I tried so hard to search it but unfortunately I did not remember it until mr.adrianlover said the title and I am so happy that's why I write this one until I have goose bumps while listening with there songs in YouTube. It was a decade now when it aired on the television but still, I feel that was just yesterday the aspirant talents that now big star.
Millennials got hooked with a lot of Kpop stars from different countries. Most of the pop stars have their army worldwide. I will get back in the past for my time when Kpop is not as huge as now. I will just reminisce "Dream high 1"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgJc2SU4F5Q&ab_channel=KBSStarTV%3A%EC%9D%B8%EB%AC%BC%EC%82%AC%EC%A0%84
The story is very inspirational for those teenagers who had a dream to be recognized for their unique talents. It is a combination of their passion and relationship with one another they develop friendship, commitment, and passion with their talents.
The main star with their amazing talents.
This is Bae Suzy(Go hye Mi) a girl with a angelic voice with insecurities behind her amazing voice longing to be recognized not just a supporting but in a lead role
Ok Taec Yeon with a very distinctive move on the dance floor learning to trust because of his not-so-good background and change to be good in his talent.
Kin Soo Yun as (Song Sam Dong) with a gift of the promising voice of the heart throb after his transformation.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=snSuYxRFDYw&ab_channel=%ED%94%8C%EB%A0%88%EC%9D%B4%EB%B2%84%ED%8A%BCPLAYBUTTON
varities of flowers
I really love flowers it reminds me how God created them for us to appreciate the beauty of nature.
Roses from different places have their own beauty that signifies even though the thorns may hurt you the beauty of its flower will just vanish the hurt that it cost you.
This beautiful Vietnam rose reminds me that it has its own time to bloom when the morning comes and the sun is high you will see them in full bloom and in the afternoon the flowers will close. it only lasts for one morning the next morning new buds will flourish.
They need special care different flowers has their own uniqueness like us give them the right care and they will just bloom for you to see what you have made them
Korean love songs
I really love Korean love songs but I am a proud Filipina here. The true reason behind it is even though I really don't know the lyrics but the emotions are very strong. In every Korean love song are there beautiful kdramas that everybody gets hooked.
One of my favorites is You are beautiful, I got hooked by the story of how music and love combine in the story plus the meaning of the songs is very emotional.The lead actors are A.N.JEEL and Park Shin Hye .
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eih4mFutZE4&ab_channel=AnushkaGupta
I really love this scene on how Park Shin Hye innocent look melts my heart while staring Jang Keun suk, they are totally different from each other trying to disguise as one of the boys to purse her dream to be part of tha group and rest is history.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v7hE9KjTcg&ab_channel=PackParinyaporn
I really get emotional and never get over with the story and the song. I am a music lover that's why I love those dramas that involve music and love.
I must say that I really love Park shin Hye her innocent and beautiful face plus how she played every role was amazing.
Heart String is way back a long time ago but the story evolves in music and their love for each other in spite of all the hindrances that surround them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zakvWA6r5AI&ab_channel=TV-Peoplehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVrmxqRXZzU&ab_channel=heartstringsseason2
It was a very long time ago but it just seems like yesterday for me that my heart melt with this drama.Even though that I really don't understand the words but with subtitle it was amazing...
I wrote an article about a teacher and a plant lover and when I open it it's a different article; it appears when will change appears from different writer
i really dont know why when i open my article a teacher and a plant lover different article appears. can someone view my article a teacher and a plant lover please ....
A teacher and a plant lover
When I saw his post in our group in mayana/coleus lovers and collection https://www.facebook.com/groups/889633161451819 Iam so amazed on how beautiful his collection are specially coleus plants.
When I saw all this picture I asked permission to use his beautiful photos to write an article here in read.cash that's why I chat him to know him better to ask few questions about the journey of his passion in plants.
This is the flow of our conversation about his passion for planting different plants.
I asked his name and he said Edel Mark Napao from Grewnhills, President Roxas, North Cotabato. He is a physical instructor at ****Kidapawan Doctors College********.**** He is 29 years old. He said that his passion for plants started since he was a student and the rest is history having a wide range variety of different plants. https://www.facebook.com/kidapawandoctorscollege/
I asked him what is his favorite among all the plants that he had?
He said Calathea, because of its beautiful leaves that last long unlike other plants.
Lubersiana 5 pots
Illustris 2 pots
Tri color 2 bucket,
2 pots Magic star
2 pots Micans
1 pot Mosiaca
3 pots Jungle rose
3pots Jungle rose green lipstic
3 pots Medalion
1 pot Medalion v2
1 pots Jessie
1 pot Freddie
1 pot Repens
4potsLousea
That are the list of his collection of calathea
**He also have syngonium**
Pink allusion
Strawberry
ice Pink splash
Pink Yellow
giant and small Batik Albo 3kings
**Caladium**
Doble kara
Red emperor Butterfly
Spring fling
Sexy pink Twist
shout White allure
**Aglaonema**
Aglo Snow
white Boxer Big roi
Red lipstic
Stardust Mangkornyok
Red unyamanee
White unyamanee
Pink lipstic
Pink cochin
**Alocasia**
Alocasia Black velvet
Sinauata Camouflage
Angle wings Var.
Badyang Tapul badyang
5o varities of coleus.
I asked him what influence him in planting a wide range varieties of plants, He said that his mother and brother who also a police man that sell plants.He said that we must plant "Plant it by heart.. What i mean is love what you've planted... Then kakausapin mo sila.. Just like how you care your love ones ..."
I gave him all the great credits with all this beautiful pictures of his plants thank you for sharing it with us and make me realize that we must love all the plants in this planet.https://www.facebook.com/enapao/
worthless
Is there a time in your life that you question yourself if your life is worth living for?
I am in the time of my life that I questioned myself if my life is worthless?
Then my experiences flashback in an instant the time that I want to end up my life because I got 76 in algebra in high school. My mother always expects me to do well in school I really hate to disappoint her by giving low grades in school that's why I am so depressed and tried to end up my life by drinking oxalic acid, my mother used it to bleach our white shirts and for me that time I think it is poisonous. That time I put half the pack of oxalic acid in a chocolate drink so that it will not taste so awful then at one sip it's a terrible taste that's why I put it in the sink and cried a lot after that I realize it is not the right thing to do. The time that teacher will give us my report card with my mother into my surprise I got 82 and my mother is contented with my grades because she knows I am not good at math. The time that I tried to end up my life I feel my life is worthless because I disappointed my mother.
When I was young, my mother is very strict she always wants me to do things at my best and when I disappointed her I really want to end up my life, I really dont know why I feel that most of the time, maybe the hormonal imbalance of being a teen-ager.
There are a lot of people who think that their life is worthless that's why they end up their life. We heard a lot of news about those teenagers who committed suicide and that is very alarming because I myself experienced it without proper guidance they will end up their life so easily. In my own experience, there will always be in our life that we will question ourselves if our life is worth living.
**What are the reasons why we feel that we are worthless?**
We feel worthless because we feel that we are no longer important to anyone that no one cares about what we feel all the things that we did are not valuable to others, especially to our loved ones.
Those people who matter to us don't value us as a person that they only treated you good if you only do good for them.
If we did not meet their expectation they will just ignore your presence and the worst thing is they will make you feel that you are a very big disappointment in their lives.
It is very important for us to make others feel that life is worth living especially with our family, every member must feel that they are well accepted and being loved unconditionally in showing that they are all appreciated for anything that did in their life and proper guidance is very important.
Now that I am also a mother my life has a meaning with my children.I am not a perfect mother but I will do my best to accept and love them unconditionally.I will wake up and thank God that I am still alive to share the world my meaning in this life. I am grateful to be with this kind of platform that I can barely express my thoughts in my mind just to inspire others not to do the same mistake that I did.
pasta with Spanish sardines
As a mother, I really have to consider offering my family a healthy and easy meal to prepare. My family loves pasta that's why I must be creative to give a distinct taste of pasta, not the usual spaghetti or carbonara. This recipe just comes out with my mind years ago.
Ingredients:
Spanish sardines 2 cans
onion 1 big red onion
garlic 4 cloves minced
pasta 250 grams
carrots 1 medium size cut into cubes
potato 1 medium size cut into cubes
olive oil 1 tbsp
pepper 1 tsp
oyster sauce 1tbsp
parsley optional
Directions:
In a saucepan put the oil add the garlic, onion until it turns medium brown then the carrots and vegetables add the oyster sauce add a half cup of water put salt and pepper to taste let it simmer put the Spanish sardines let it simmer, and set aside.
Pre-cook the pasta according to the direction and combine with the sauce add the parsley on the top.
The wonders of barley
Health is our wealth that's why I am sharing these wonderful messages to the world to discover the great wonders of barley in our health to give us wealth in our lives.
Green barley is not a medicine or a drug; it's considered as a total food to help in the maintenance of proper nutrition together with the daily food intake of each individual.
**How does barley work in our body?**
Barley grass (Hordeum vulgare) is known as one of the green grasses. The true beauty of barley is found in the leaves. The young leaves have a tremendous ability to absorb nutrients from the soil. It is usually harvested 200 days after germination when the shoots are less than a foot tall. Barley grass contains all the vitamins, minerals,and proteins necessary for the human diet, plus chlorophyll.These necessities are easily assimilated throughout the digestive tract,giving our bodies instant access to vital nutrients.
Green barley helps in the maintenance of proper nutrition as it contains important nutrients for growth and nourishment.
The best way to take green barley is to be taken 20 minutes before a meal or 2 hours after a meal and mix with cold or room temperature water.
**Essential nutrients of green barley:**
Live Enzymes-Barley grass contains 300 enzymes for body utilization. The enzyme is a type of protein(or protein-based molecule) that speeds up a chemical reaction inside a living organism. It functions as a catalyst to enhance and dramatically speed up biochemical reactions that occur in every one of our cells.
**Type of enzymes**
Superoxide Dismutase(SOD)-anti-aging enzymes. The main function of this powerful antioxidant is to remove toxic substances from our cells.
Peroxidase-Isolates break down and neutralizes Try-Pi and P2, a carcinogen in grilled meat and fish, and 3-4 Benzopyrene and Carcinogen in tobacco.
Catalyze- Considered the most efficient antioxidant enzyme because of its ability to convert 40 million hydrogen peroxide molecules into harmless water and oxygen in just one second.
P4D1-Enzymes can stimulate the repair of the DNA molecule to produce good cells and destroy cancer.
**Amino Acids and protein**s-Amino acids are the building blocks of protein, in which 20 of them are present in the body proteins in significant quantity. Proteins are the major constituent of every cell and body fluid(except urine and bile) and are thus necessary for the continual cell building, regeneration, and energy production that we need for life.
**Chlorophyll(Liquid Oxygenated Sunshine**) chlorophyll and heme are the fundamental pigments of life. It has anti-inflammatory and anti-oxidant properties which reduce fecal, urinary, and body odor.
**Essential vitamins and minerals**-Barley grass contain the highest mineral content, including potassium, calcium, iron, and sulfur.
In my own experience, I had a lot of wonderful stories about green barley it is a lifesaver for our family.
a kind heart is a broken heart.
Most of the time have you ever wonder why there are still many people who have a kind heart despite all the bad things that happened in our surroundings?
Did you realize why most ordinary people help those others without expressing it on social media?
How can you say that someone has a kind heart?
A kind heart is a broken heart for me because those people who had experienced bad things that happened in their lives that almost broke their lives still choose to have a kind heart. A broken-hearted people know the feeling of how our society works for those who have nothing or to be quoted seen one" no value to the community, they are less popular. We heard the news about those people who raise with their humble beginnings like Jack Mah that become so wealthy and popular at this day who have helped millions of people.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X9JExlvPwcs&ab_channel=StartupStories
I would like to share these people's experiences in life so that we can be inspired by their stories and we can say that they had been broken one time in their life but now they had helped millions of people lives.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBN4-dgO7x0&ab_channel=MariellaNgo
I had worked in SM as a sales invoicer it was my first job I was amazed by the story of who started the company and experienced how they treated their employee they give all the best benefits for their employee because they believe that it was the reason why they are successful.
They are just a few people whom I admire because of their humble beginnings but help others to be inspired to do good with a kind heart.
Karma
When I was growing my mother will always tell me about karma at first I really don't know what it is, but then I realize it deals with something that you have done good or with others and the result of it depends on what you have done.
Most of the time my mother will tell me if I will do good to others good karma will be in my life. As I grow up, it remains in my mind that I have to do good things and in return, others will do good things for me.
Realization as I got older it is not always like that, no matter how good things you did to others they will not return it with a good intention that's why there are times that I get depressed on how people abused me for doing good things for them.
Then I settle with the intention that always does good things with others without expecting that they will do the same in return because that is the essence of true happiness in life.
Thank you for creating this community so we can share good karma and happiness to others.
$30 from read.cash
It surprised me to saw my account in read. cash for almost 6 months and found out that I had $30.
My motherboard got broken and we don't have money to buy another one, for the past 6 months I did not open my account in Read.cash. I was so depressed that time because Read cash is one way to express my thoughts in the different opinions of what's happening with our surroundings. Every day I am so excited to open my account to read a lot of articles that informative and give inspirations the bonus is the reward.
My rewards in read.cash is a big help for us those time of pandemic plus the fact that it boosts my confidence that there are people who appreciated my articles, read.cash family is very supportive with each other.
Then finally after 6 months, we bought a new cpu and the first thing I want to open is the read.cash and then check my account and to my surprise, $30 is in my account a bit of disappointment because I know will not get that cash because I did not save my seed words. I just told myself it was just a good memory to save in my brain that one time in my life my articles reached $30 its a very big fulfillment for me as a full-time homemaker.
I would like to thank Read.cash for appreciating my works my God bless you all and keep inspiring.
eve's garden
When I was young, every morning I saw my mother watering her plants. I can clearly remember how beautiful her plants. She will spend a lot of hours just to make sure that all of her plants are in excellent condition. It amazed me how this plant made my mother so happy even though she spent a lot of time and money to make them beautiful. It is a big fulfillment for her when others noticed how beautiful her plants are. Most of her flowering plants are Santan flowers it is so beautiful because it always blooms with a lot of flowers.
Now that I am already a mother and I also have a lot of plants it consists of different varieties of plants. Every morning I was also busy just to make sure that they are all well.
This is my favorite collection of plants.
Colleus plant is a tropical SE Asian plant of the mint family that has brightly coloured variegated leaves and is popular as a houseplant.
I really love this plants its leaves is so beautiful it comes in hundreds of varieties.
These plants are really easy to take care of, they just need to be in full sun and their leaves will fascinate you.
I also have facebook page name Eve's garden I had a different kind of plant.
Every morning I am so thankful that I saw beautiful creations of God through these plants as I also reminisce my mother now that she is in Heavenly Father's hands.
after 6 months iam back with one thing that i really love to do....expressing my thoughts to write an article that will inspire other to pursue life with gratitude...
almost one week without any activity in read cash because my computer malfunction but I am thankful that I have points, but now I am active again but my point is stock so ironic but happy to be back again and reading quality article here.
regrets!
In my 36 years of existence in this world.
***I am a failure!***
***I failed to be an obedient daughter***
***I failed to be a brilliant student.***
***I failed to be a supportive friend.***
***I failed to be a suitable partner.***
***I failed to be an exemplary mother.***
***I failed to be a good citizen in my country.***
When I was a child, my parents told me to obedient because they will never ask me to do things that might harm me as a person. As I become a teenager most of the time all I want is to be alone. I never talked to my parents of what I feel about the things that they want me to do.I became rebellious in a way that it come to a point that they know me at all. Most of the time I keep arguing with them with no valid reason that causes them so much heartache.
***I disobey them and that is the biggest regret in my life!***
As a student, I am just an ordinary with thoughts in my mind that a not failing grade is ok for me. I never give extra time to excel as a student. That's why when I graduated and looking for a job there are a lot of applicants who excel well in their school I always at the bottom of there choices.
***I regret those times that I am just comfortable with my grades and not prioritizing enough to excel in school.***
I am not a friendly type of person most of the time all I want is to be alone, that's why I only have few friends but I must say that they are a true treasure in my life. They are always there to accept all my shortcomings and support me in anything that I want in life, but most of the time I don't appreciate the things that they have done to me. In there most needed time to have a friend I was not there but they always understand my situation that's why I treasure them so much.
***I regret most of the time that I am not with them when they need me.***
I am separated from my husband for more than a decade now we have children. I was too young and selfish to understand that my ex-husband needs a supportive partner. Most of the time when he made a wrong decission in our life I keep nagging him that cause our big fight until he hits me a lot of time that cause trauma in my life and the reason why I got separated from him.
***If I learn how to be suitable with him maybe we are a complete family now, and its added in the list of my regrets in my life.***
As a mother, I was trying my best to be a good example with them but how can I do that when we are a broken family. How can I be a good example if I let my own family and my children live separately?
***Regrets that give so much pain in my children not to be a good example with them on how to become a good partner with there father.***
Because I failed to become a good daughter, student, friend, partner,that's why I am not a good citizen in my country because as a good citizen I must be good enough with the people.
***Failures and regrets are somehow connected with each other in my life.***
***If I failed I regret it but the best part of it I learn from my failures and do my very best to become the best version of myself self so if failures come again I will not regret it because I did my very best not fail!***
I really hope someone will understand my article.
@eve
