What my February Taught Me?

I’m back!

Oh, where did I go? Nothing but at home, lol! Kidding aside it’s so nice to be back, back in writing. The end of February made me preoccupied with some stuff I need to finish, making me inactive a bit both in noise.cash, and in read.cash too.

Now, we’re on the fourth day of March, feels like days passed by with a blink of an eye. While some shares their monthly report of earnings, for me, here’s my monthly report of what lessons it taught me within February.

Today, I shared a post of our activity at home, since it's a hot Friday, we let the kids enjoy splashing on the inflatable pool today.

They had fun under the sun until they get tired of swimming. This week the weather was unpredictable, so as soon as we discern a sunny day, we grabbed the opportunity to set up their pool.

It was tiring, yet fun indeed, though I didn’t swim with them, I was there to look out for them.
While I was sitting capturing the fun moments, I remember the draft I left on the laptop. It’s been there for two days now, and today, I decided to continue what I wrote.

As you know, I would love to recollect and reflect most especially at the end of the month, this way, I would be able to recognize myself better, from my weakness and strength and lessons from the good and the bad experiences I had.

Since February ended just a few days ago, some events in the said month were still fresh.

Unlike other inspiring writers here, a boring writer like me doesn’t have monthly reports of my earnings or expenses, since I’m using all my earnings as of the moment to support the family, all I have is my monthly learnings in my complex world.

In a short span, of 28 days, I could say that there were so many happenings in my February, and along those moments comes the lessons and learnings that I chose to keep.

This is the very first lesson I learned to enhance while I was living the month of love. Since being at home I couldn’t deny that I am stressed about paper works and my obligations as a mom. My husband was there but he can’t help me 100%. Since I have a 5-year old boy and a toddler, anyone should expect chaos between the two.

Our house was a full loud laugh, giggles but worst, with loud cries. Every time the two boys were fighting, I couldn’t hold my patience easily, makes me burst out of anger, yet after that, while I was lying on the bed, I just realized I should be more patient since these kids are just starting to explore and fight among siblings over toys and stuff are completely normal.

Each day, the scenario was almost the same, yet, I am controlling my emotion quite better now, being a parent of two boys is true could make me crazy, lol! 🤣

As I’ve shared before, my father asked me to be his encoder of grades and scoresheets, those paper works keep me busy and preoccupied until today. This made my time both in read.cash and noise.cash dividend. Aside from that mommy duties should be fulfilled too.

And honestly, there were times I tried to write articles yet they ended as drafts instead. Due to my tired mind and body, I failed to write consistently, and I am guilty of this inactivity. However, I know after this second quarter of filing, I could give more time to my left task, especially in the online world.

At first, honestly, I was guilty, but I realized that rushing things sometimes could make things worse. And the worse was I blamed myself which isn’t helpful at all.

When my father held his birthday for the first time here with us, he was with his new family, wholeheartedly, I accepted everything and his decisions and besides, they’re been together for almost 6 years. Though his other siblings still couldn’t accept his new family, me as his daughter, found out that acceptance is all we need to have a peaceful life.

Some things are out of our control just like my father’s feelings and decisions, and I know he is happy so I am happy for him too. As long as I could see to myself that he is being taken care of, and his smiles could tell me he’s indeed comfortable with his new family.

Sometimes our pride and ego are stopping us from accepting things we couldn’t agree with, however, letting go of those could make us happier and peace in life too. We only live once, so why not accept the things and some decisions that could make someone happy?

The past month gave us challenges too, of course, we are given challenges almost every day in our day-to-day life, but the last month of February had tested my faith and trust a lot. From financial struggles, family dilemmas, but whatever those were, I know those were just challenges that could help me to be wiser and strong in facing more years of challenges.

My faith has been tested, and I came to the point of giving up because I am just tired of all the problems I am facing, yet God proved to me that He exists. It may be difficult today but I know in God’s perfect time everything will fall into its proper places. I would just trust this process and do my jobs without stepping into someone.

I know February was just short and quick unlike any other month in the calendar, yet this month gave me so much in my heart that until this very moment I am holding to.

And in this new month, I could say I am ready to face anything, equipped with faith and grace. And I am manifesting a blissful month of March this year.

It might be a little late but I would like to say, “March please be good to me.”

Let’s just end it here. Thank you for your unending love and support of my read.cash family.

Written by: @eommaZel ✍🏻🥀