June 7, 2021 Monday

I woke up last night just an hour after I posted my last message for the night. I thought, I already slept for a long time. All that was on my mind was how I'm going to be healed. I think I was a bit hallucinating. I stood up I feel dizzy as soon as I stood up. I slowly went outside of the room and went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water. After that, I filled the glass with water and started looking for my headache meds. I'm sure I put it on the table top but there's nothing in there. I tried to search for it on the plastic bag that has other medicine but it wasn't there too. Then, I thought, maybe my brother has it. Good thing, he's already awake. Ask him and yes, he really kept it. But there's only 1 left and he just gave it to me.

I went back to my room with doors open so that the fan's air can come inside. And then, I suddenly felt cold. It's like I'm chilling to the bones and all I can think was it's because of the flu that I am experiencing. At first, I just tried to endure the coldness that I'm feeling. I tried to go back to sleep but I can't because I was really chilling. I can feel the coldness running through my veins.

After a few minutes, I decided to get up. Not to turn off the fan but to wear socks hoping it can ease the coldness I'm feeling. I also put some efficascent oil on my feet thinking it might help. So, I put on my socks and went back to bed. Again, tried to go to sleep but the sock didn't help with easing the coldness I feel inside. I was feeling kinda worried because I haven't felt this way for a long time.

Flashback story

Way back pre-Covid Era, when i was still working it in business processing outsourcing or BPO, i often get sick. Either i'll get severe cold and cough. It's hard to get sick especially if you're a customer service representative because you have to take in calls and even if you have a cough you still need to take in calls. What i do is if i have cough and i'm taking in course i'm just putting the customer on mute so that the customer will not hear it.

Sometimes i also use my cough as a reason to not go to work. I go to a hospital to have myself checked, get prescription medicine and request for a bed rest for 2 to 3 days from my doctor. Then i will get a medical certificate so that i can show that to my team leader. And as easy as that, i will be on sick leave for 2 to 3 days.

There was a time though that i have to have myself checked for real because i lose my voice. Before and not believing that someone can really lose their voice because it never happened to me. But we back 2018, just after we celebrated fiesta in my hometown, i invited some of my colleagues and my team leader. We went to swim in a river and during those times i have been shouting because i was calling my nephew that is far from us. I already have cough that time and i thought that it's just the same simple cough i'm always getting.

After 2 days, i woke up without any voice. Like seriously i don't have any voice. Whenever i speak with a high pitch or even just a normal pitch, you can't hear my voice. I can only speak in a very low pitch so that a voice will come out. I went to a hospital and i found out i have laryngitis where in my voice box is inflamed already.

According to Mayoclinic.com

Laryngitis is an inflammation of your voice box (larynx) from overuse, irritation or infection. Inside the larynx are your vocal cords — two folds of mucous membrane covering muscle and cartilage. Normally, your vocal cords open and close smoothly, forming sounds through their movement and vibration.24 Jul 2020

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So i really lose my voice, and it took me two weeks to recover. Actually it's more than two weeks because after 2 weeks i can already talked and a voice is already coming out of my mouth. But i cannot speak in high pitch because nothing's coming out if i'm speaking in high pitch.

Back to my story

Since wearing a sock did not ease the feeling of coldness and it's not helping me sleep, immediately get up and decided to turn off the fan. I also wore a sweater and i cover myself with my blanket. I also drank the medicine that was left and got back to bed. My head is still aching as the medicine has not taken its effect yet.

After a few minutes, i fell asleep and i only had four hours of sleep. But thank god i woke up headache free. I'm feeling a bit a little bit better compared to last night. I don't feel cold anymore and i immediately took of the sweater and turn on the fan. Then after that i went to the kitchen and drank two glasses of water. After that prepared my breakfast.

I went out and walk my dog. But of course i have to wear a mask for safety and precaution. While walking i was thinking, really can't afford to be sick specially that i'm working from home and i'm working on a home-based like i'm self-employed so i don't have medical insurance. And getting sick is really expensive right now.

My brother will have his swab test today and I'm hoping it will turn out negative. Otherwise, this could mean I might also acquired the virus since we live on the same house. I am afraid for myself too because i might be a high risk covid patient if ever because of my high blood pressure. But i am praying and putting my trust in the Lord that I am going to be okay.

It's gonna be waiting game for my brother and I. For the meantime, let me listen to this song to keep me at peace.

Healer lyrics

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in you
I trust in you

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

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That's right. Jesus is all I need. And I trust that He will heal me and my brother of the illness we have right now.

I put all my trust in the Lord. My Lord Jesus has already done so many things for me and so many answered prayers. I will not doubt Him for a moment. I have faith in the Lord. Praise God. All glory and honor be unto God!!! 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️