I was being raped

The day started well, fine weather, my kids were at our house, and my mother at hers too. My sister just came from the city and brought lots of delicious food, some were junk food, and are oversized.

Everyone dug in and had a happy conversation talking about life and how it went. The plans for the future and everyone had a great time.

Everything went in a blur, I was feeling very happy that everyone that I love is happy.

Night came and everyone fell asleep; I lay beside my sleeping husband and kissed him goodnight.

Before I fell asleep, I saw a spirit, a bad one, flying over looking for his next victim and bringing along with him my dead cousin's name and he raped me. I could not move; he was very strong since he was a spirit.

I could see myself being attacked by the spirit; I was locked in bed and cockroaches held my hands in place. I stiffened because of the pain and I shouted because of the horror that I was going through.

My mouth could not open but I insisted on shouting and shouted as loud as I can.

With all my efforts, finally, a sound went out of my mouth. My husband woke me up; it was all a bad dream and thank God it was not true. But the nightmare felt so true, My heart is still racing from the horror that I just went through. My husband helped me up and gave me water to drink so I'd calm down.

He asked what I dreamt about, and only told him a part of the truth. I told him there are cockroaches. I fear that he would feel bad if I told him someone was raping me in a dream and it was a spirit.

I refused to believe that the nightmare was true but in the morning I felt burning down there when I washed.

Could the dream be true?

I once read a story about witches once that a bad man raped the protagonist in her dreams but it really happened to her.

I could not tell anybody about my dream; I am afraid I will be judged by them and rejected.

It fears me so much.

My elders used to believe that some women are being raped by incantos(spirits) and demons and some even get pregnant and were judged by the people around them.

I just hope that it was not true; I am praying to God always.