Am I Lucky To Have Him?

Good morning to all, how are you? This article of mine here now's inspired by Mommy @Yen 's article po, that gave me an idea and the reason why i came out and write this one here po for today, suddenly, can't help but ask myself that question here, hope you can help me answer or made it clear for me po, lol.

Am i lucky to have him? Is he the one God sent as an answer to my prayer? Suddenly, can't help but ask myself that same questions here po but then again, people come and go, you meet people not by chance but because you are bound to meet and know them and there's a reason behind it for everything happens for a reason, right?

Can't help but remembered the guy i met 4 years ago, really thought he's the one meant for me, even processed and get the so-called CENOMAR 'coz i thought we are going to get married or just really my thought, my expectation, now do believed that expectation might just turned into disappointment and would hurt you big time. Yes, it made me disappointed and had hurt me, even remembered crying on my cousin/workmate's shoulder that time and he told me, " Nat, may dahilan kung bakit nangyari 'yan sayo, you knew that people come and go and there's a reason why we met them, right? Don't cry 'coz of him, he doesn't deserves you and he doesn't deserved that tears 'coz he's an idiot and really not serious at you from the very beginning, it's just you who assumed, thought and expects it, looked at where it got you, move on with it, forget all 'bout him, we are all here for you, i am here for you, the people who care and love you are all here from you so don't cry anymore, be happy, start all over again, we are going to help you forget that one or what you had experienced, you deserved someone else that's better than him, he will come at the right time and at the right place, don't look or search for love anymore, let love find you and fall in love, okay?" that very moment or time, i've had come back to my senses and he's right with all what he said or told me before, lol, so thankful and grateful at him for that one po, somehow i'm still lucky and blessed 'coz i got people out here who really cared, loved and accepted me for who and what i am po, thank God for that.

After that guy went back home and after what my cousin/workmate told or advised me, i focused and work a little harder, for 2 years after it, that's what i do, i stop and never looked for Love, i focus on my work, my life, myself and my family, friends, workmates, in short, i enjoyed life, moved on to the bad experienced i had before or to that guy po.

Then on February of 2019, My Halfbrother messaged me, told me 'bout he's other friend again, lol. By the way, he's the one who introduced me to those guys or his friends before, all of it was just nothing, a waste of time, they are not serious and just looking for fun or maybe just trying to ease or kill their boredom, lol. Anyway to continue po, he told me that he's going to introduced me to his good, very good friend daw po na biyudo at naghahanap daw po ulit ng asawa, remembered telling my brother that the guys he gave or introduced to me before's not serious and just wanna play, he said sorry but told me that the one he's going to introduced this time's for real and really serious daw so i said, yes and go, and that's My KJF na po, lol.

Since i met him last February of 2019, must say, my life had changed, saw the so-called silver lining, my life's not dull anymore, colors are everywhere na po, if i must say, lol, in short, he was the one who thought me to love again, to be happy again, to believe again and to forget my past though my brother, he and the guy i met before all work on the same company and knew each other, ang saya, diba, lol. That fact was what we used to argued before po, 'coz he thinks that i'm still talking to that guy 'coz he tell or say things at him, kinda complicated and like a movie, right, but that's what really happened before po.

Now, My KJF and I just celebrated our 2 years anniversary po, must say, i'm lucky to have him po 'coz i never thought or expected that we are going to last this long po or for 2 years. Though like other relationship's going through or experiencing po, being jealous or jealousy can't be avoided, on my side, i'm not that jealous po 'coz i believe and trust him po but on his side, he's always jealous of everything, from my work, from my uniform, from my male workmates. He thought that since i worked at the hotel, i do side or extra job there, lol, really? Told him that the hotel i'm working here at's a decent one and doesn't allow that kind of thing and that it's different from the hotel at his place. Don't get me wrong po, there's nothing wrong being jealous or 'bout jealousy, in fact that only shows what he really feels for you, right? But too much jealousy or being jealous until now, i don't think so po, lol.

Somehow, i'm lucky to have him po 'coz for few months, he had helped me with the things here po especially when i got no job or work 'coz of the Pandemic, he sent me money to buy some food here, to buy what i want or needed , in short, he provides. But for few days now, dunno where he's at na po, he never messaged nor answered my calls or texts, so got no idea what's happening na po.

Am i lucky to have him 'coz he saved me? Am i lucky to have him 'coz he made me forget my past and that guy? Am i lucky to have him 'coz he made me feel alive? Am i lucky to have him 'coz he made me laugh and believe in love again? Am i lucky to have him 'coz we are together now or in a relationship now for 2 years? Am i lucky to have him 'coz he's still jealous until now? Am i lucky to have him 'coz we lasted this long po? Lastly, am i lucky to have him 'coz he's the one who provides? Those are the questions that came out of my head po while i'm writing this one here now, hope you will help me answer that questions po, lol. Am i really lucky to have him po ba?