Waiting in a medical centre.
Waiting is so surreal in a medical centre. People are all here coughing and sniffling. I often wonder if sickness is gotten from visiting a doctor. You are probably more prone to getting something as you are the doctor to tell what you had in the first place.
I really think masks does something. Yes it's not perfect but it's probably because I can't stop fidgeting on my face with the mask. In not sure what other bacterial I've inadvertent touched and now carry at the palm of my hand.
Waiting patiently. Listening. Pausing. I feel like I've moved forward in the queue. Each step waited patiently trying to be patient. Breathing slowly. Willing time to pass by easily. With no bother. Slowly starting to feel my body cycle through is recovery. I'm sick. Just enough that when I cough my head feels like it's about to explode. The constant coughing is starting to take it's toll on me.
Eyes down. Not eating to meet other people's. Wanting to just sit here alone, like a hermit crab without a shell. My clothes could be except I didn't wear my hooded jumper. My breath all clammy and warm inside my mask. There is a sense of familiarity. A sense of comfort. Held in this small infitismal universe created in the mask bubble.
Still waiting. Time had passed but how long I've not noted down. I should do that in future so I'm not left guessing. Coughing in my mask and I'm not even bothered by the particles floating and landing on my skin. Maybe a shower well get rid of this little disgusted feeling in getting from the thought. People just keep coming. Coughing like me. Some looks like blood shot eye from what ever I hope to God not going to collect. This is not a Pokemon challenge, gotta catch em all.
Did I separate a couple since I took this seat earlier with two available spaces in between another guy. They just arrived. Well they look content so will just keep my eyes down and pretend like everything is ok. We all have those days where we don't have the energy to take an extra step to allow other people comfort.
