Do you find yourself being programmed into someone else?

Let there be life. These are words uttered when we all talk about origin stories. A tale of one life from whence it came from to how it has come to this.

Growing up in a large family there was always lessons to be learned, especially when you are the bottom of the ladder. A single though by someone older than you can lead to a lot of fun or a lot of suffering. There are no other way to grow ujp than to start thinking of ways to get to the top when everything else pushes everything down to stop your climb. Either about the morals and the ethics you are likely to get across to 'teach you' about how to live.

You'll understand...

You hear this all the time when you are asking questions. A million to one questions you are hoping someone, anyone could bring you to higher to elevate your idea as a boy growing into a man. You embrace those lessons since you had no choice in the matter. Any hands being raised will just get you a quick rap on the ear. Stings enough, you will stop asking questions and just take it as they are. No. Questions.

Then you are here now, reading this and you are left with a new dilemma of how to be a man.

A man who will get told they are no longer allowed to stand up to what you were rapped on the ear all those years growing up. You are now told everything you are is all wrong. Left to wonder where you belong even before you can start to not ask questions since you are not allowed to ask in your head. Since you are fully programmed to jump and say how high when told to. You repeat things they are you to since choice in the matter was never given to you in the first place.

Of course you are not going to get anywhere now since everything you do or are will not be acceptable to anyone.

Are there no other way to get involved in anyone or anything without having to give up a little part of you anytime you get to want or get anything you need. It is worse when you need since you really have no choice in the matter then to really start to strip when you have been built into. It is all you after all. You are your own product they say. You are what you say you are with every action you make from the time you are born to the time you find yourself in. When you start to question this you are also told you have no right to get to any bottom. The very bottom.

How then can you be yourself when who you are is not built into the mold everyone has made.

There is the conundrum you find yourself in. You are both inside the mold and outside of it since you cannot exist out of it but must be subject to being changed again into something not to your making but by some other people wanting you to be fitted into a slot they believe you belong. Forget asking you about a choice you have since when they ask you, you have no choice if you say the 'wrong' thing.