Hello Readcash Fam! How are you all? Me? I don't know what I'm feeling today. Its monday but I don't feel motivated, I don't want to do anything but my works were waiting for me. I don't know why I felt weak, I felt worthless. I did my works with no energy, thats why I only do some household chores then after that I went to bed again feeling sad.
Have you experience this also? waking up in the morning with heavy feeling, feeling exhausted even you didn't do anything? I don't know whats with me? Is this symptoms of being depressed? But how and why? Is this normal? I feel tired without doing anything. Do am sick? But my temperature is normal. Oh gosh whats happening to me.
My friend even chatted me but I am lazy to open any messages today. I feel like no one can change what I'm feeling and no words, and actions can bring back myself from being jolly. I don't know what to do, I don't know what I want. I miss my old crazy self which can easily get along with and even with little things I can be happy but now those things doesn't have affect on me. Am I losing my hope? Am I losing myself and my life? I don't know whats gotten into me that my happiness before can't have any affect on me now.
I don't want to lose my life, so I cried and cried to God and pray to him and asked Him whats happening to me until I realized that God is waiting for me to bow down unto him. I forgot Him in my life thats why He made me feel this way because I already lost Him long time ago. Yeah there were many times that I forgot to pray, I forgot to read the bible which is the bread of life. He is the only one who knows how to touch my life.
It really comes to my life that I forgot God in my life, kaya niya siguro binabawi yung happiness ko dati kase dahil doon nakakalimutan ko na siya. Kaya pala kahit masaya ako outside alam ko sa sarili kong may kulang ito pala iyon si God. People around us never complete us its only God.
I feel this song today entitled "Lost without you" It suits to my feelings because God wipe my tears and turns it into joy. He is good when nothing is good in me.
I thought I am losing myself and my life today because this is my first time waking up up feeling worthless, exhausted demotivated and such in short lifeless.
Its really true that without God in our life madali tayong mawawalan ng interest sa buhay. As the song said "Without God we are lost"
By the way my friend Tammie/Zcharina ( real author of this account) is busy inviting her classmates before. I just hope she can invite them knowing her she is very shy type person and very private in real life!
Thank you for reading! Lovelots!
Tammie's friend here!
Tama po. Kaya dapat ay wag po natin kakalimutan si God dahil sya talaga ang may ari ng buhay natin kaya sya lang din po ang makakaayos ng mga problema natin at alam na alam nya po talaga kung anong nangyayari sa atin at kung anong nararamdaman natin. Kaya dapat ay lagi natin syang naaalala at kailangan lang po talaga natin magtiwala sa kanya.