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I feel like I can't do it. It's hard to be like them.
It's been week since my last anxiety. Over the years I didn't experience those kind of anxiety until I gave birth to my son last 2018 and decided to be stay at home mom. I know this kind of feelings were valid as we have what we called post partum depression. It is not easy I admit. There are times that I can't understand myself but there are also times that I know what I feel that way. Almost four years of fighting on my anxiety but I'm still alive and kicking. Thank you Lord for the strength and love that you have always given me in times that I need you the most. ***It was just this morning when I felt like I am having a breakdown again.*** One of the factors why I am having an anxiety is the crypto market. Seeing a down trend makes me overthink because of the assets on my wallet that I can't able to convert because of paper loss. I told myself okay it fine. I just forget about it until the bull market comes. Aside from engagement on Blockchain platforms I want to pursue freelancing. I am saving money to buy a new desktop with high specs because my laptop is kinda low end and it will not meet the criteria of the clients requirements when I decided to start applying. I have an experience in BPO industry as a Data Lift Auditor or Quality Assurance. I thought when my experience would be a plus factor to my resume but I guess it's not. ***This is the reason why I am having an anxiety earlier...*** Freelancing is like a new industry and I need to start from zero. I started watching different YouTube videos about freelancing and how to become a virtual assistant. I even attended free webinars so that while I am saving for my new desktop I am also gaining some knowledge with the path that I want to take. ***But there are times that I feel demotivated and doubt myself if I can..*** I am not really good in English. If you can see my works here there's a lot of grammatical errors but I keep on learning and there's no doubt about that. Sometimes I doubt myself upon seeing unfamiliar task that I need to learn if I want to be a VA. Thinking about them makes me head aches because I don't have an idea how to start and what's the first thing to do. I browse my Facebook account and I saw a website of my friend on Facebook that is now a Real Estate VA. I opened it and I was amazed on how she made the design and the construction of her words and sentences that is really attracting to client. And that moment I feel like I am having a breakdown because I was belittling myself. I feel like I can't do it. I feel like it's hard to be like them. All my motivation last month just fade away and it changed by demotivation. But despite of all of my doubt and worries on my skills I still keep looking forward because I have a dream and I will my dream and my family as an inspiration to become better and better. I know it will be hard but like what others mommy said who wants to be a freelancer there's a perfect timing for everything and I know God will give you a client in His own perfect time. I ended up writing this one just to ease the heaviness that I am feeling now. Thank you for reading.
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Don't ever doubt yourself as long as you don't stop learning and striving. Everything has process, so starting from zero is normal just don't pressure yourself to see results yet. You know, in my side.. I've been studying trading indicators to trade better but until now I'm still not so good in trading. Alam nyo yan pano ko inaaral mag trade pero til now wala pa rin better results, mas maigi pa nga yung mga nag trade na di gumagamit indicators like Florie and Ruffa.. pero kahit ganon, di ko na lang talaga pini.pressure sarili ko. Iniisip ko na lang sooner may magandang resulta din pagtatyaga ko. Ganon lang, wag mo masyado e down sarili mo dahil lang nakikita mo ang iba na magaling, tandaan mo bago yan sila gumaling dumaan din yan sa kung anong pinagdadaanan mo ngayon. Laban lang tayo, kahit nahulog na ang BTC sa $20k 😤🤧🤦
Haysss. Nagsulat lang ako para gumaan pakiramdam ko. Alam ko Naman Yun and Hindi ako magsasawa na mag aral kahit masakit sa ulo.
Laban lang, kung di kaya tingnan ang market pahinga na muna.
Nagconvert nako kanina , lugi 3k. Atleast dinako anxious patingin tingin. Lesson learned ulit . Focus nalang s pagsave pambili desktop
Hmm, sayang.. need mo naba yung pera? Pwd mo pa naman sana antayin tumaas, malay mo next month or next tataas kahit break even lang not unless kailangan mo na. Hodl na lang talaga sana pero, okay na yan kung yan makapag pagaan nang kalooban mo.
Funds ko sa cph yon e. For emergency purposes. Pambayad bills and pambirthday din ni hubby.
Wag mo iisipin na ganyan ate, always remember na lahat tayo napagaaralan yam.naalala ko unang pasok ko sa cc halos gusto ko sumuko kasi di ko talaga kaya yung mga gawain tas sumunod sa lahat, peo while natagal mas natututo at natututo ako. Lahat tayp may process, minsan nga di natin alam na mahina tayo sa ganyan ngayon pero as time comes tingnan mo mas gumagaling tayo
Salamat ♥️
Go for goal lang Mamsh kahit mag struggle tayo, Padayon!
Thank you mon ♥️
Siguro sa umpisa talaga eh normal na yun makafeel ka na baka di ko kayanin. Pero paano mo malalaman na di mo kaya kung di mo susubukan.. Push lang Uen, tapos kapag andun ka na at ginawa mo ng lahat pero di pa din kaya, saka ka na mag isip ng gagawin.. Sa ngayon wag ka magpapadaig sa thoughts mo.
Ganito talaga ko mommy. Kahit nung unang sabak ko sa BPO gusto ko tumakas Kasi feeling ko diko Kaya pero naovercome ko Naman Yun at napromote pa.
Okay lang yan miss yen. Minsan dami talagang challenges na bigla-bigla nalang dumadating satin pero still positive parin miss yen. Laban lang palagi. Hindi tayo magpapatalo sa mga pagsubok na meron tayo.
True. Salamat ♥️
Antagal ko na dn gusto magapply as VA pero feeling ko di ako qualified. Feeling ko dn laginsa bpo hanggang pamg agent position na lang ako.
Gusto ko Kasi ipursue mommy kahit cold caller lang para sa bahay nalang ako. Sana in God's perfect time matutunan ko din lahat
Make sure to open YouTube.. It'll give you much money than doing webiners
Pano?
Apply na po kayo ate. Sabi nga nila its now or never. Tsaka understandable naman po yun na medyo di kayo magaling sa english kasi baguhan palang. Baka masanay din po kayo katagalan
Wala panga akong kaalam alam saka Wala pako desktop
It's a good thing po that despite feeling demotivated you still help yourself to get back up again fighting po!!! Amd trust on God's time
Yeah . Pray lang and alam ko He will give me the knowledge and motivation to move forward
I think the thought that triggered your anxiety about the crypto market and freelance is thinking about what happened to your children and family when financial becomes a crisis; most of mother also same as you, I think it's normal but always think that happens because it has reasons. 🥰
Oo grabe inflation ngayon 😭 Saka gusto ko din ipursue to for me. For my growth pero syempre for my family talaga. Kahit anong raket na nga lang Sana Basta matulungan ko lang si hubby financially
There are times when I try to compare myself with others but remind myself that everyone is unique and we must focus instead on our strengths and not our weaknesses.. we can recognize them and do something to improve that aspect in our lives.
Ayun nga. Parang diko Naman alam ano strength ko 😭
You may have not seen or observed it, but you got improvements too ate :) Cheer up.
Haysss. Sana nga meron hehe