I will continue to pretend that I'm okay so that you will see me in that way.

It's been 7 years since I broke up with you. I am getting suffocated because it feels like you were controlling me. I know, weve gone though a lot and face challenges in the past and we thought that we can still able to survive that challenge but I am wrong. Since I broke up with you we decided to cut all our connection but I didn't expect that you will also cut the connection between you and our friends.

We were in a circle of friends consist of four people. Me , you, Lia and Jude. They witnessed how our friendship and love started and they have them on those time that we experienced ups and downs. I know, its also hard for them when we broke up because they also need to adjust especially when there a special occasion. I remember when we celebrated the birthday of Jude and his birthday is the same as your birthday but they acted normal for me even if I feel inside they also thought you.

I transferred my career from nurse to a real state agent. Jude, my friend and also your best friend is a successful real state agent and he encouraged me to work there because of a promising salary which he knew that I needed because of my mother's condition. I became a successful real state agent and I really enjoyed working in the field and as I broke up with you I also gave up my American dream.

Seems destiny was favored on me as I became better when I decided to let go of you. I already achieved my dream for my family which is to buy a house and lot because we are just renting since then.

Then Lia asked me a question , why not try to date a guy because it's been seven years since the break up happened. To be honest I tried to date and entertain a guy but it seems that my heart is not ready to give all what I have today until an incident happened.

Jude involved in a car accident and from his wake, after seven years I saw you again. You came back here in the Philippines to see Jude. I thought that I already moved on and I will not feel anything when I see you but I'm wrong. All the memories in the past came back and I don't want to face you and pretend that I'm okay.

Klea, I heard a familiar voice that mentioning my name. It was you. You asked me if how's life but I decided not to answer you nicely and I said its none of your business. You are asking for a proper closure but I told you this. Why do you need a closure? You are married now, you have a wife in America. Then still you want that closure. You hugged me very tight and you were crying but I pretend that I am not affected and I leave the funeral. Yeah , I know that you are already married with the girl who offered a job to you when you are newly landed in America. How do I know? It's because of your little sister.

I went to the parking lot and out of my sense I didn't noticed that you were following me but I decided not to go in our house and you didn't succeed to find me. And if you were going to find me in our old house then you will not find me because we already moved a couple of years ago. I stayed on a park near our house and breath some fresh air. The happenings were not syncing in to my mind as I didn't believed that after seven years I will see you again.

I pretend normal when I reached the house but my mother knew that I will met you in the funeral but I told them that we are okay and we are casually greeting each other. I told them that past and past and I already moved on with you but the truth is I only convincing myself that I'm okay and moved on but deep inside I want to talked about how we end up like this. I will continue to pretend that I'm okay so that you will see me in that way.

Here's the part 1 of the story : A closure that I wanted all these years.

Thank you for reading.