A faith healer, a pain killer or my prayer?

I want to start this article by saying Thank you Lord God for the healing.

As you read my previous articles I am experiencing anxiety. An anxiety that is not normal because my body already reacting on the stress that I am feeling. Last December I had an irritable bowel syndrome because of stress then this past few days constant headache and jaw pain. I also share it here. Then Sunday I had a shoulder pain. A shoulder pain that is so much pain like it's not stiffness because there's something na kumikirot sa loob going to my arms like it's on my veins.

I don't want to be pessimistic but my body said it all. I am really anxious and I am afraid that anytime my body will give up. Last Monday is the worst feeling about my anxiety because my head was hurt like there's a vein who is beating and I'm afraid that if my anxiety will continue I will die. You know the brain aneurysm because of depression like on the reason why Joyce from TikTok died.

I am thankful that I have a good husband and he never leave me nor judge me base on my behavior. Yesterday was his rest day and he let me rest. He is the one who did the house hold chores and I am very thankful to that. He told me if I want to go on the faith healer near our place so make pahilot my shoulder because maybe it's just lamig because when I got drunk last Friday I slept with no clothes at all. So we went to the faith healer before we went to the birthday of his colleague.

While the faith healer massaging me he said it's a stiffness and it's because of the uric acid. I was shocked because I have no idea that I have high uric acid. I feel so comfortable after the massage and he told me to take medicine for uric and he said it's celecoxib.

I bought 4 pieces on the drugstore and before I take it I search it to Google first and find out that it's a medicine for person who has arthritis and the faith healer is right. Before I sleep I take one to try if my shoulder pain will be gone. My husband let me sleep early and he is the one who look after our son.

Before I sleep I prayed to God. I am praying for healing and I told Him that I am still trusting Him that He has a better plans for me. Maybe I didn't understand now but I know there's a purpose on everything. Maybe I did something wrong that's why I am sick or maybe God wants me to realized something. A big part why I am feeling this way because I am angry everytime like I am shouting with the kids and being angry always had an impact to the health also. Well I just realized it while I am praying so I told myself that I will try to be calm while stopping the kids from doing something.

So earlier in the morning I am bit well compared on the other days though my shoulder is still hurt but tolerable now. I try to be calm from time to time to that my head will not be hurt again and thank God I feel better now.

I am also thankful to my sister in-law @mhel_dita for the conversation earlier. I feel the my bagage was lessen because I open something to you. Indeed a person who will listen and talk to you has a great impact for being feeling well.

And tadahhh my husband bought me some chocomalt cream puff with cream cheese.

And cook this one plus my favorite Korean chicken.

I am ready happy because I can feel the lightness on my mood and my body and I am looking forward for this kind of feeling everyday.

Thank you for reading and Godbless.