40,000 pesos got robbed. My fault.
October 11, 2022
8:27 PM
Good morning everyone. How's your morning so far? I hope you're fine and happy.
Yesterday was a severe anxiety breakdown for me and Im really scared about my mental health and also about the effects on my body. If you read my post on noise.cash about what happened on my father's savings. That's the reason why my anxiety triggered yesterday as my father called me over the phone and he was about to cry and I really hated myself of being so pabaya. My husband told me that it's not my fault because I secured the money but still I admit that I am the one who is responsible for the lost and I promised to my father that I will going to change the money that has been lost.
I really hated myself why I became so irresponsible. I don't know what's wrong with me. I didn't know who's the thief and why he knew that my father's money is on the old battery box.
We have face a lot of problems these past two years and the most affected to us is my father. The reason why I breakdown yesterday is because I don't want my father to get hurt anymore especially now that we are living here in my in-laws.
I always call him and texted him and I hope my siblings do thier part also as I noticed they didn't bother to ask my father about how's life going lately. I know we have different lives now but my father needs love especially we are apart.
Last night I can't control my headache. My jaw seems locking and I can't control now to drop my jaw from time to time. I rest so early and I told my husband to pull my hair so that I can't feel the pain in my head. Until now it's still hurts but I need to continue life like I always did before.
My prayers is not all about me but it's more on my father. If only I can't comfort him from time to time. If only I can heal his heart to make him feel better. I just don't want to him hurt and suffer anymore.
40,000 pesos is a huge money but money can be replace. My father has a good heart and I know God will blessed him more than he deserved. We believe that theres a reason about things that has happened and we still believe on God's plan from us.
Maybe God wants to unite us? Maybe God wants us to communicate as a family? Maybe God want us to reconcile and forgive ? Who knows?
Like what my life verse said on John 13:7 , Sometimes we didn't understand what Gods doing what we understand it on the coming days. Just trust Him.
Sis, kamusta ka na? Read some of your post...hope you are okay now